His thumb pressed lightly into my side while his other hand curved around my back, keeping me exactly where he wanted me. I caught his shirt between my fingers, holding on as the world narrowed to only the heat of him and the tension in his body.
When I finally responded, his breathing even hitched slightly, which was unusual. It made me wind my arms around his neck, though. I pulled him even closer, needing him to know that whatever was going on out there, he was okay.
I was still here. I always would be.
In return, he kissed me like he meant it and when he finally pulled back, it wasn’t by much. He rested his forehead against mine, his breathing downright choppy now.
“I’m sorry,” he repeated, but it was almost a whisper this time. “I need you to know that you mean everything to me, Eliza. No matter what, you always will.”
My heart leaped before it melted. I slid my fingers into his hair, a soft smile spreading on my lips as I looked into those blue eyes that were usually so clear but seemed so tormented today. “You’re home now, my love. I’m right here. Are you alright? Because you don’t look it.”
He choked out a laugh, his grip on me tightening as he started walking me back toward the hallway. “I’m not, but I will be as long you’re here.”
I stroked my fingers through his hair again and tilted my head back, willingly moving with him. “I’m not going anywhere. Although we do seem to be moving toward your bedroom.”
“Is that an objection?”
“Nope.” I smiled and inhaled a deep breath to calm my racing heart. “I’m more than willing to be the distraction you so desperately seem to need, then we can talk later?”
“All I want tonight is to hold you,” he murmured, sliding a hand into my hair and kissing me soundly once more. “But if you want to distract me, I won’t stop you.”
I giggled. We walked into his bedroom, and I sat down on the edge of the bed as soon the backs of my knees brushed against it. I let my hands drop to his hips. “Allow me, then.”
As I started working on undoing his belt, he watched me intently, his eyes almost silver in the darkness of the room. He said nothing as I unbuckled it, leaving it open in the loops as I reached for the button at the top of his fly.
My heart rate sped up again when I realized he was actually going to let me do this, take control. A shiver of desire ran through me, intensifying when he let out a soft groan as I slowly dragged the metal zipper down. “Eliza…”
I glanced up again but moved my hands up to the buttons of his shirt and started on them in turn. “You can tell me to stop, Jesse.”
A tender smile ghosted across his lips when he must’ve recognized that I’d repeated the same words he’d said to me so many times. One of his hands came up to cup my face, his eyes focused only on my own.
“I’m never going to tell you to stop, Eliza.”
“Excellent. I’ve been looking forward to this.” I felt my lips curve into a rare smirk as I pushed the shirt off his shoulders and pulled his pants off next, bringing the underwear with them as if I knew exactly what I was doing.
I didn’t, but eye-to-eye with his already hard cock, I felt my uncertainty melting away.It’s not possible to be awful at this after how many times I’ve read about it.
Reaching up, I wrapped my fingers around the base and relished the soft moan that escaped him. I opened my mouth and leaned forward, slowly letting him slide between my lips. Jesse let out a string of muttered curses that encouraged me so much that I felt a rush of heat between my legs, but I ignored that for now.
Doing my best to keep my teeth out of the way, I folded my tongue as much as possible under the underside of him and starting bobbing up and down. I probably looked ridiculous, but the quiet sounds vibrating through his chest told me he didn’t care, so neither did I.
I kept going, moving my hand in time with my mouth and letting my cheeks hollow out as I sucked. Jesse’s hands landed on the back of my head, not pressuring, but guiding, and I took it happily, so turned on by knowing how much this was clearly affecting him that I could barely keep from begging him to just take me already.
When I felt him swell slightly between my lips, I thought he was going to let go, but instead, he pushed me off him and got me naked in a flash. The speed at which he managed it was surprising, but I laughed and helped him wildly shed my clothes.
Jesse gave me a tight smile as he reached into his bedside drawer and produced a condom, a slight sheen of sweat covering his skin and his chest rising and falling fast.
“You’re too sexy for you own good,” he muttered, making my mouth dry up as I watched him roll the condom on. He let out another low groan when he caught me staring. He crawled onto the bed with me, all those lean muscles rippling as he moved. “God, you drive me crazy.”
“You do the same to me, so it’s only fair.”
As he settled between my legs, he kissed me softly, only deepening it as he slowly fed himself into me. My breath stalled in my lungs, pleasure racing through me as he stroked every delicious part of my insides.
Once he was all the way in, he gave me a second to adjust, his mouth still lovingly devouring my own. Finally, he started moving and I moved with him, giving myself over entirely to the pleasure he was so very capable of eliciting from my body.
Lost in the very last person I’d ever expected to feel this with, I didn’t fight when I felt an orgasm cresting from deep inside, simply moaning as I contracted around him. The climax was gentle but exquisite, so unlike the blinding rush of those from the other night that I almost started crying.
Gosh, it’s no wonder people describe this as such a beautiful experience.
