After that night, I had been getting completely sloshed every night.The guys were afraid to talk to me at this point. I hadsnapped at everyone, which really threw them off. It was like I was outside my body. Like, I didn’t have any control over what I was doing. I was drowning, and I didn’t know how to get out of this pool of lies.
Like any other day, I was in the cave with a bottle of Jack, chugging it while surfing through the pictures I had of Will and me. For the first time in thirteen years, I was about to shed tears. I was that broken little boy all over again.
The sound of the cave door opening prompted me to hit the power button of my phone before burying it in my pocket. I knew it had to be either Cara or Sara. No one else could get in unless we buzzed them in.
I turned my chair around and watched Cara waddle to her desk. I almost laughed. She was currently five months pregnant with another little boy. I swear, at this point, I didn’t think Viper could pull out of a parking spot, let alone her. He kept Cara pregnant. This was baby number five, and he was still talking about how he couldn’t wait to have another.
Cara took her seat, placed her hands on her belly, and watched me intensely. She didn’t say a word. I was starting to get uncomfortable. I’d seen her do this one too many times. She was analyzing me. She might have been a retired government agent, but she still carried those skills to this day.
“Can you stop looking at me like that? It feels like you’re looking into my soul.”
She shrugged her shoulders. “My nana always did say a person's eyes were a window to their soul. They will tell you everything you need to know about someone.”
Chills ran down my body. Against my better judgment, I asked, “And what does mine say?”
“Someone hurt you in the past. You experienced more heartache and pain than one person should. Then Will comesalong and offers you some sunshine, and now that he’s gone, you’re back in the rain.”
I couldn’t believe my ears. She knew.
My chest rose and fell erratically. I was panicking on the inside. If she knew then who else did? Were the guys aware, too?
My hands shook and my palms were sweaty. I needed to get away.
“If you’re thinking of trying to bolt, don’t. The safety lock is in place.”
I clenched my jaw, knowing I wasn’t getting out of here. Cara and Sara had a lock installed in the system that made the door impossible to open from either the inside or the outside. The only way you could open the door was if they entered their code.
“Cara…” I choked out.
“Talk to me, Tech. This is what I do.”
“Huh?”
“Come on. You know. At some point, I have to come talk some sense into you all when you’d rather self-destruct than face your problems head-on. First it was Bear, then Thor, Big Red, and now you.”
Now I saw where she was going with this. Cara had given all three of them a wake-up call when they were ruining their relationships or wallowing in self-pity. But my story was different from theirs.
“First, I need you to tell me how you know?”
Despite how I hurt him, I didn’t suspect Will at all. He had a heart of gold and would never do something like that to me. He was always protecting me, even when I failed him.
Cara scoffed, shaking her head. “For someone who helped Sara and me put the cameras up, you sure were quick to fuck Will on the west wing.”
My heart sank to my stomach. I deleted that footage as soon as I got into the clubhouse.
“I wiped the camera footage clean, though.”
“Yes, you did, but did you forget that Sara and I get those trigger alerts just like you?”
I groaned, palming my face. This was what I meant by Will always had me gone for him. Common sense didn’t exist when I was around him. I just knew I needed him and that was all that mattered.
“So ...so… you saw us…” I trailed off nervously.
Cara threw her head back, laughing. “No, I didn’t see the actual act. I clicked out once you started unbuckling his pants.” I could feel the heat in my cheeks. I knew I had to be red as a tomato. That made Cara laugh harder. “Honestly, I had been having my suspicions for a while, but that night you gave me confirmation.”
I snapped my head as my brows dipped in confusion. “What do you mean you suspected for a while?”
“My God, you and Will really thought y’all were slick. I’m going to tell you the same thing I told him. That day I caught him coming out of this room with his neck littered with hickeys, I knew you two had something going on.”
