I wanted nothing more than to give Will what I saw my brothers were giving their women. I just didn’t know how.
Will’s alarm clock on the nightstand went off, breaking my thoughts from going down memory lane. I had been up for a few hours after another nightmare of Sire.
Will stirred in his sleep before slamming his hand down on the clock. I couldn’t do anything but chuckle as he repeatedly hit it until it stopped. Will wasn’t a morning person. The sun wasn’t even up yet, so I was confused as to why he had it set so early. Eyeing the clock, I noticed it was six a.m. Normally, Will didn’t get up until seven thirty.
Will groaned before rolling over to face me. “Morning,” he hummed as he snuggled up to me. We were both naked as the day we were born, so I instantly started to get hard. Will’s eyes shot open as he started backing away from me. “Nooo, Jacob. I need to get to Cara’s early. Chase has a doctor's appointment, and I need to be there when the triplets wake up.”
“Why so early though?” I pressed myself against him, making him shudder.
“B-because their doctor’s office is an hour away and his appointment is at eight thirty.”
“I’m sure we cansqueezein a quickie,” I purred, squeezing his ass.
Will untangled himself with a grin. He got out of bed, revealing he was just as hard as I was. I chuckled, rising out of the bed, making my way to him. Will was shaking his head frantically as I lunged at him. I started licking and sucking his neck as I slid my middle finger down the crack of his ass, pressing against his hole.
Will bit his lip, eyes dark with lust. “Jacob… baby…ugh, you don’t know the meaning of a quickie.”
Just as I opened my mouth to say something, his bedroom door flew open. Alice stood there, her eyes wide and her mouth hanging open. I jumped away from Will as my heart sank into my stomach.
“I-it’s not what it looks l-like,” I stuttered.
Alice slammed the door shut, and I turned to Will. The look he was sending me was something I had never seen from him. I mean, he looked ready to rip my fuckin’ head off. I opened my mouth but couldn’t think of anything to say.
“Are you fuckin’ serious?!” he shouted.
I tried to get closer to him, but he backed away. I was honestly afraid to pull him to me like I always did, so I kept my distance. “Dimples, it's not like that. You know that I love you.”
“No! I’m not doing this shit anymore. You’re standing here, bare-ass naked with a hard dick, and all you can say is, it isn’t what it looks like!” he shrieked. He was so angry that his face had turned red.
“That’s because it isn’t anyone’s business what happens between us.”
Shit. I didn’t know why the fuck I said that.
All the anger washed away from Will’s face. Now he was staring at me emotionless. “Get out.”
The two words were like a knife in my chest. I couldn’t accept that. “Dimp?—”
“Out! Don’t bring your ass to my window tonight because it will be locked, and it will remain that way. You’re not ready to come out, and that’s completely fine, but I will no longer be your secret. I deserve better than that.”
His last statement made me feel like the biggest piece of shit.
I deserve better than that.
And he was right. Will deserved the world, and I was too much of a coward to give it to him. I knew at this moment there was nothing I could do or say to make things right. In all the time we had been together, I had never watched him shed a tear over me. I felt nothing but anguish as I watched the tears roll down his face.
Knowing I was the cause of his pain, I decided to give him what he asked for. But I wasn’t giving up. I never would. I knew in my heart Will was my soulmate, so I wasn’t going to live without him.
I gathered my clothes and got dressed. Will never took his eyes off me. Once I was dressed, I walked to the window and opened it. Before I hopped out, I turned to look at him one last time. Something felt different this time. The lack of emotion from him, combined with the look of disdain he was sending my way, was alarming.
Still, I held onto the hope that he would come back to me and not leave me lost without him.
Chapter Nine
WILL
For the past two weeks, I didn’t recognize myself. There were dark circles under my eyes from lack of sleep. My skin was pale. Hell, I had even lost some weight.
I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t sleep. This torturous cycle had me on the brink of insanity. I knew leaving Tech would be hard, but it had to be done. When he blatantly denied us being together while standing stark naked with me, I knew he would never come out.
