He blew out his breath. “No, I’m sorry…you were just asking a question based on everything I told you.”
“It’s okay, Jashaun.” I squeezed his hand. “Still processing. I get it.”
His lips curved into a wide smile. “You called me by my first name, sharing a meal, and sitting out here with me. We finally had our first date. And all I had to do was become a father.”
“You’re something else.” I laughed aloud. “You really are.”
The smile slowly drifted away, and he closed his eyes, though he held on to my hand. Silence widened the small space between us.
Not sure what else to say to him, I eased beside him, and he shifted enough for me to curve my body to his. I snuggled against his warm, strong chest, and he propped his leg over mine and warned, “Our neighbors can see us. You keep moving against me, they’ll get live porn.”
“Stop it.” I met his pretty eyes, now lazy with desire. “See, I knew if I gave you an inch, you would take a marathon.”
His confession drew me to him, and that he felt safe enough to share something so deep and personal. I didn’t know how this night would end, I just knew that I didn’t care that we were visible to most of our neighbors since the pool centered the community. And I wasn’t ready to leave him and return to an empty condo.
“Hey, you’re the one who came over here, all hugged up on me, tucking your head under my chin and shit, and don’t expect me to kiss you.” The soft rumble of his voice thrilled me.
“Maybe I just want to comfort you.” I sniffed his neck. “You always smell good, even at the end of the day. Mm…I could be with you like this forever.”
“Fuck it,” Jashaun said before he tilted my chin with one finger and brushed his smooth lips against mine. “How do I taste?”
I gasped. “Did I say that aloud?”
He only smiled and kissed me again. This time, opening my mouth with his tongue. We both hummed in pleasure, nibbling, delving, indulging in the sweet, poignant desire of two people who may not have another moment like this. I kissed him in wonder and disbelief that so much had changed in a matter of hours. I went from trying to avoid him to desperately wanting him inside of me. His lips moved across my skin, leaving a trail of fire from my neck and my bare shoulders as he slowly lowered the top of my dress. The cool air pebbled my nipples right before the warmth of his mouth covered one while his hand massaged the fullness of my other breast.
I found the bottom of his shirt, and he stopped pleasuring me long enough for me to pull the material over his head. I loved the feel of his hard, naked chest and rained kisses on the tat of his fraternity on his right pec. I murmured, “You don’t know how many times I wanted to see what you were working with.”
“Probably not as many times as me.” He chuckled as he slid my hand underneath the band of his joggers to hold proof of his thick arousal. “You feel so damn good. Thinking we take this to my place because I’m one step away from fucking you out here. And how hard I am, we’re going to be too loud to hide from our neighbors what we’re doing.”
My hand didn’t want to release his pulsing erection as he moved in rhythm to my stroking. I glanced around at the balconies that faced the pool. “I’m not going to make it to your place. No one’s watching, and there are no cameras over here.”
He kissed me again and gazed into my eyes. “Please say you have a condom in that bag of yours.”
“I do.”
Lines appeared in his forehead, and I kissed his lips and stroked him harder to keep him focused on the magic about to happen. “I see where your mind is going. No time for yourjealousy when you asked me if I had protection, and I want you way too much.”
His lips curved on one end as he shifted until I was underneath him. My breasts now pressed against his chest, my dress around my waist. His throbbing manhood urgently begged for more between my legs. Jashaun’s tongue darted inside my mouth again while I retrieved my condom from my bag. I eased down my panties, he smoothly covered himself, and with one masterful thrust, slid inside of my tight walls.
Jashaun captured my loud moans in his mouth as he absorbed every sound, curse, or ecstatic purr while he rocked against me. Only his bare ass pumping hard and fiercely would be seen if anyone happened to walk past or step out onto their balcony. I’d never had sex this fast with a man. Or maybe because he’d been easing his way into my heart with every flirt and conversation over the last few months, tonight was just the inevitable culmination.
I clung to him, my arms and legs wrapped around him as he fucked and fucked me underneath the stars on a cool night. His strong and controlled hip movements pushed me into new rapturous heights. The moonlight and the fact that anyone could be watching only intensified the sexual tension, and I knew my end would be soon.
I just hoped that this would also be our beginning.
THREE
jashaun
Life never surprised me.Being the only child of a young breast cancer survivor, I couldn’t afford to get knocked off my feet. An eight-year-old, cleaning up after a mother sick from chemo with a smile, so she didn’t feel guilty that she relied on her son more than her dysfunctional family, who lived in another state. For that year, I practically took care of myself. Waking up and preparing for school alone while my mother slept off the pain medications. Cooking hot dogs and mac and cheese for dinner, and keeping the house clean when she was too weak to do it. By my tenth birthday, my mother and I had become more like friends than mother and son. We’d been through hell and back together, and I’d learned to be ready for whatever came my way.
Until yesterday, when I became a father.
Correction.
I had been a father for almost eight years and didn’t know it.
Unable to sleep, I eased out of bed to not disturb a sleeping Soraya and walked to my closet. Standing naked in the middle of my walk-in closet, I stared at the back of my black and gold jersey.
