I stayed. And I was terrified.
Chapter Four
Beau
SHE WAS STILL IN MYbed when I woke up.
Not at the edge with an exit mapped. She was sprawled across the sheets, one arm flung above her head, her braid half undone and dark curls spilling across the pillow. The sheet had slipped to her waist. Morning light came through the salt-hazed windows and found the freckles across her shoulders, the faint white scar on her right hand, the steady rise and fall of her breathing.
My boathouse looked different. Same reclaimed pine floors. Same bare surfaces. But her tank top hung over my chair. Her shorts on the floor next to my cargo pants. The bathymetric charts she’d brought from Reckoning were spread on the kitchen table where she’d been working before everything else happened. A pen uncapped beside her notes, her handwriting crawling across a legal pad in that exacting, slightly unhinged scrawl.
The place had been mine the way a foxhole is yours: functional, defensible, quiet. This morning it felt occupied, and the occupation had happened while I wasn’t looking.
I slid out of bed without waking her and pulled on shorts. The dock was warm under my bare feet, the wood holding the day’s heat already at oh-six-thirty. The creek ran high and quiet against the pilings, and the marsh stretched green-gold under a sky that hadn’t decided between haze and clarity. Confederate jasmine hung heavy on the railing, sweet enough to catch in the back of my throat. A great egret stood in the shallows fifty yards out, motionless, waiting for the tide to deliver breakfast.
I stood there. The water did what it always did—moved, breathed, carried the salt smell that had been the baseline of my entire life. My father had taught me to read a tide by standing still and paying attention, and I’d carried that into the Teams and out the other side.
This morning, what I was paying attention to was the sound of someone else breathing inside my house.
I went back in. She was sitting up in the sheets with her hair wild and her eyes still soft from sleep. She looked at me in the doorway and neither of us spoke for a beat that lasted longer than it should have.
“Morning.” Her voice was rough.
“Morning.” I leaned against the doorframe. “Eggs?”
“You cook?”
“I fry things in a pan. Whether that counts is between me and God.”
The corner of her mouth turned up. She pulled the sheet higher—not modesty, just the instinct of someone deciding whether to stay in bed or get up and face the day.
“Eggs,” she said. “I’ll take eggs.”
I fried them in the cast iron while she showered. The boathouse had one bathroom, and the sound of water running through old pipes added a frequency I’d never heard in this kitchen. I cracked four eggs, found hot sauce in the back of the cabinet, put bread in the toaster. Unremarkable domesticchoreography that felt, this morning, loaded with something I wasn’t going to pick apart.
She came out in her own clothes: tank top, cargo shorts, braid damp and pulled over one shoulder. Sat at the table, moved her charts aside to make room, and ate the eggs without comment on their quality. Good enough.
“We should dive the eastern grid today.” She pulled a printout toward her. “The timber we found is the edge of the debris field. If the hull broke up on the ridge, the heavier cargo would have settled—”
She was already gone. Back in the work, yesterday’s find running underneath her voice, her hands moving fast across the chart. She hadn’t mentioned last night. I hadn’t either. We’d moved straight to the job, and that felt more honest than any conversation we could have had about what this was or where it was going.
We loaded gear on Reckoning by oh-seven-thirty. The morning was already brutal, the humidity sitting on us, and by the time we reached the dive site the sun had burned through the haze and turned the water to hammered silver.
WE FELL INTO A RHYTHM.
Three days of diving the eastern grid while the May heat built toward June. Three days of her directing and me running security, moving through the water in tandem that tightened with each dive until I could anticipate her turns by the shift of her fins.
Evenings at the Maritime Museum with Vik, who talked at twice the speed of anyone else in Tidehaven and couldn’t maintain a poker face if his tenure depended on it. He’d pull documents from the archive with the enthusiasm of a kidunwrapping presents, narrating the provenance of each piece to an audience of two who didn’t need the narration but couldn’t bring ourselves to interrupt.
“This is a customs declaration from Nassau, 1863—” He’d hold up yellowed paper with both hands, as though it might escape. “Cross-reference with the Confederate shipping codes—”
Marley would lean in, and the two of them would disappear into a conversation that moved at a speed my brain had to work to follow. Dates, tonnage calculations, maritime insurance fraud in wartime. I sat in the corner of his cluttered office with its mismatched mugs and towers of journals, let them work. Watched her face when she hit on a detail that mattered—the sharpness dropping away, replaced by a focus so pure it burned off everything else.
Nights at the boathouse. Her charts migrating from the kitchen table to the walls. Her flip-flops by the door next to my boots. The way she hummed off-key while reviewing sonar data, a habit I suspected she didn’t know she had.
She didn’t keep my space neat and I didn’t expect her to. Pens everywhere. Printouts stacked on surfaces that had been empty for three years. Wet swimsuits draped over the dock railing to dry. I found a dive mask on the kitchen counter and a granola bar wrapper in my bookshelf. My boathouse was developing an ecosystem, and the ecosystem was her.
One evening she brought back boiled shrimp from the marina bait shop, and we ate them on the dock with our feet in the water and our fingers smelling of Old Bay. She licked her thumb and went back to a cargo manifest without pausing.
