“Why? I want you to sleep with us.”
“I’ll have to buy a bigger bed if you want that. There’s no way the three of us can fit.” It’s the best excuse I can come up with, benefitted by the fact that it’s true, too.
Gael laughs, his frown disappearing. “I already have that worked out. We’ll fit, trust me.”
How can I say no to that face? To that smile? I love this man; I want to see him happy. “Ok.”
Gael smiles so sweetly. “Will you help me make a mess of Phin? He likes your dick better than mine.”
I don’t know what to say to that. Gaelhasnoticed that Phin reacts better when I fuck him? Does that mean he’s also noticed I never come?
“Are you disappointed?” I don’t think I’ve ever had to ask Gael what he’s feeling, and it makes me uncomfortable that I don’t trust the smile on his face.
“I like that he likes you,” Gael replies happily.
Phin snorts a laugh but doesn’t add anything else to this conversation.
“One of Phin’s best qualities is that he doesn’t like me,” I reply, shaking my head at Gael. “He only has eyes for you.”
The hurt in my heart hasn’t lessened at all, and this conversation is a reminder of why.
Gael frowns at me, sitting on the couch next to me as he does. “Do you really think that?”
“Of course.” Isn’t it obvious? All those girls that dumped him because of me—how can I not like Phin’s eyes on Gael? He will never hurt my best friend—I’m the one in danger of doing that this time.
“Why?” Phin interrupts from above us.
We both look up, startled. He never interrupts our conversations even if they’re about him. “What?” Gael asks.
Phin looks at me with those huge gray eyes—eyes I’ve seen at their most vulnerable. Eyes I’ve wanted tohurt. “Why do you think that me not liking you is the best part of me?”
Gael grabs my hand, tearing my attention back to him. “Is this because of Jessica?”
Gael doesn’t know. I can’t look at him when I say this. “Jessica. And Becca, Teri, Patricia, Felicity, Courtney, Danielle, and Justine. All of them broke up with you because of me. I hated them for doing that. They’d break your heart and then think it would be ok to try to take mine, as if I could ever give myheart to someone who hurt you. So yes, Phin’s best quality is that he dislikes me.”
I’m twenty-five years old and wiping tears out of my eyes. I hate that I’ve gotten overly emotional even though Gael’s the only one who can do this to me, and he would never try to stop me. He’s one of those precious souls that values every emotion, even the ones I hate.
“I’m going to go shower,” I announce, standing up. I don’t want to continue this conversation when all the pain I have inside me wants to break out.
“You always shower afterward,” Phin rumbles.
With Gael in charge, I doubt I’ll be able to. He wants to sleep together, after all. He’ll probably want that as soon as we’re done having sex.
But I don’t say those things. I just walk away like I don’t hear the question in Phin’s statement.
When I’m done, Gael already has Phin pinned on my bed, kissing him. He’s hard and leaking without any of Gael’s body actually touching his cock. Phin is so much larger than both of us, though we’re not small guys, and Gael always looks a little dwarfed when he’s on top of the man.
I’ve never taken initiative with Phin’s body, only ever doing what Gael tells me to, but tonight feels different. I feel different. I want to please Gael, because I’ve been the cause of so much of his pain already, so I crawl between Phin’s hugely muscular legs and pull his cock into my mouth. I’ve never tasted precum before, never sucked a guy off. Phin is the one who does that to me, not the other way around. I’m surprised at how quickly his dick fills my mouth, and the way he suddenly moans when I swirl my tongue around his glans. Desperate need to treat this cock nicely because it’s dear to Gael crashes through me on a tsunami of guilt. He’s shared everything of Phin with me, andI’ve been rough with his favorite thing. I should have held Phin more gently this whole time.
I’m such an asshole, but I’ll do my best today. I’ll suck this cock and lick these balls. I’ll make sure Gael knows that I can treasure Phin too. I’ll make sure my best friend doesn’t get hurt by me again. I want to please him as much as he’s always pleased me.
“I’m gonna cum!” Phin’s declaration suddenly fills the room.
“Make him come,” Gael responds immediately.
I pull Phin’s cock as far as I can into my mouth just as a flood of bitter, salty cum swamps my tastebuds. I don’t dislike the taste, and I swallow it all down. I suppose from the start, it was only a matter of time before I learned how this tastes.
I sit up from my blow job to discover Gael has his Christmas morning smile on, sitting on Phin’s chest facing me, somehow having turned around without my noticing. “I want you to go first today,” he says gently, lovingly.
