“But with your dick out…”
“It doesn’t even reach the cooker.”
“True.”
I pour the contents onto the plates and sigh.Jamie is joking, teasing me.
Jamie is fine.
I turn around and try to look calm, but inside, I’m not okay.
“Do you want to eat here or…?”
“In bed.”His voice drops.
He gets up from the chair, picks up one of the plates, and walks towards the room while I admire the way his firm arse moves in front of my eyes.
“Do you like what you see?”
I look up to see him standing in the bedroom doorway.
I laugh and shake my head, grabbing my plate.I sit beside him on the bed, and our backs find the headboard.We aren’t as close as I wish, but it’s closer than I’d feared.
“We could have ordered something,” he says, sticking a forkful of spaghetti in his mouth.
“I like cooking.”
“And you’re good at it.”
I shrug.
“I like watching you cook,” he says, turning to me.“Especially naked.”
“I’ll remember that for next time.”The words slip out before I can stop them.I can’t imagine this ending, not tonight.
Even if he walked out now and never came back, I’d never forget this night — his words, his eyes, his smile.
Him.
I could never forget him.
Chapter57
Jamie
Next time.The Doctor wants a next time — he wants many — but I can’t promise how long I’ll stay.
I don’t tell him; his words linger between us.There’s no point in talking about it now.
I eat in silence.The Doctor cooked for me.He really wants to do things right because he is a good person.He has a soul and a heart.He’s sensitive.I’m taking advantage of that.
Reason tells me to dress quickly and leave, to stop seeking him, to end this after getting what I wanted.But then, his hands, his touch, his painful breathing.
When I met his eyes in the mirror, I realised I still didn’t have what I wanted, wasn’t finished with the Doctor, and that this thing would slip through my hands before I could control it.
Did I really believe this time would be like the others?That a few dates, some sex, a few laughs would be enough?That I could just turn away and move on to the next, leaving this one cleanly behind?
Was I really that naïve?
