Ian
When I feel how wet she is with my finger, see her give herself to me, I completely lose control. I grab her and pull her into me, then fill into her with one swift thrust.
Riley goes rigid underneath me, closing her eyes and pursing her lips and I instantly regret what I have done.
“Riley…”
She opens them slowly and looks at me in embarrassment.
“I—”
“Please…” she implores me. “I’m already broken, Ian. Finish me off and take everything with you.”
I close my eyes to control the pain, because right now all I want is for someone to take me away too.
I lean myself over her, balancing my elbows on the mattress.
And I push.
Her warmth raptures me, wraps itself around me and then destroys me.
I rest my head between her shoulder and her neck and bite her again as I push as deeply as I can. I feel her opening herself up completely to me.
I weigh down on her with my body, crushing her under my weight. I run a hand on her hip and caress one of her legs. Then I go back and push on her thigh, raising it up so I can thrust into her deeper.
She must be mine.
Only mine.
I push. Again – but this time, harder.
Riley digs her nails into my back and lets herself go beneath me, ready to accept me and let me take everything.
So that’s what I’m doing, I’m taking all of her torment away from her body and putting it into mine.
That’s what she asked me to do.
It’s all she wants from me.
The awareness that this is all she wants from me, knowing that she’ll never be totally mine, makes me lose my mind. I’m blinded with rage – I gave in to my desire and it’s eating me up.
I pull myself up, grab her hips and plummet inside of her.
One, two, ten times.
I have to. I have to have her like this or I won’t be able to watch her leave me. I have to give her what she needs then let her do it.
Hate me.
Not come back for me.
Let her kill me, finish me up and toss me aside.
I have to take it all without giving her anything back.
The time has come for her to know that I can only be an arsehole, a man she doesn’t deserve: the wrong man.
And I’m here to make her understand that.
