God, you did good work with this one.
He comes closer to me and sits right next to me.
“I was just watching you sleep.”
“All night?”
“All night, Alex. I just wanted to be able to watch you without causing any damage.”
“Oh,” I say, feeling stupid.
“You are…” He sighs before looking me in the eyes. “You are beautiful, Alex.”
I blush, realizing I’m only wearing a tank top and a pair of shorts under the covers; so I cover up the best I can, wrapping my arms around my chest.
He smiles mischievously without taking his eyes off of me.
“Could you….turn around?”
He starts laughing leaning his head back and I could just faint at the sight of his abs.
God, he is gorgeous.
“I’ve been watching you all night, Alex. Believe me there’s nothing I haven’t already seen.”
“What!” I yell furiously. “You’re a…you’re…” I can’t finish the phrase because my heart starts pounding and I bring my hand instinctively to my chest, fearing my heartbeat will accelerate too much.
“Don’t get mad, you’re going to upset yourself…”
“But I want to get angry, Jason. Don’t you understand?” I yell again, getting up from bed. “I want to be enraged with everyone. With the entire world. I want to scream and be crazy without…” I stop before my emotions get the better of me.
Jason comes towards me and I take a few steps backwards and he respects the distance I am creating between us.
“Get mad at me, Alex. Just with me. Vent everything you’ve got in there. Yell, cry. You can say anything you like, and I promise you that with me nothing will ever happen.”
“You can’t make those promises. I…I could die anyway, whether you’re there or not.”
“We’re all going to die, Alex.”
“I’ll probably go first.”
“You’ll bury all of us,” he says calmly, taking two steps towards me. He touches my face gently with the back of his hand, forcing me to look him in the eyes.
“I’ll surely die before you,” he continues, smiling.
“What makes you think that?”
“Because I could die right now, right here at your feet if I don’t kiss you immediately.”
My heart goes painfully crazy at the thought of his lips touching mine. It’s something I haven’t had the courage to even think about in these last years.
“The last time you tried to kiss me I almost died,” I say, looking away and holding back the tears.
“Well then, that means I won’t kiss you.”
“N-no?” I ask, confused, looking again into his eyes, lost.
“Not today. Let’s say I’m going to try to survive for now, but will you promise me something?”
