completely devastated and I feel defeated, empty
and terribly alone. Nothing could destroy me like
this. I’ve gone so far down that nothing could
bring me back.”
“Patrick.” He places both hands on my
shoulders.
“And maybe I don’t want to crawl out. I deserve
it, for how I decided to live my life until she chose
to give me a chance. I almost believed it, that I
would be able to be different, to be a man.”
“You are, Patrick, you are. You let her go
because of love, you did the right thing.”
Love? This is love?
It’s suffering, wringing your soul, shredding
your heart and feeding it to the wolves.
“Are you ready?” Aaron calls us from the stage.
I shake my head and join him while Jay stands
behind me sighing in frustration. I go up on the
stage and grab my bass. Liam is still at the table
sitting with Rain. He’s talking with her, smiling at
her and he gives her a tender kiss on the lips and I
feel like I could die right now, and maybe I really
would like to.
Erin has gone. She’s probably choosing the
color of the baby’s room, the crib, her first outfits
right at this moment. Her name. All of the choices
that I have no part of and I’ll never get a chance to
say what I feel about the new life inside her.
I lost the woman I love, the woman I would
have died for, and I lost my child. Yes, I know she
