“I know.” I smile again.
“I’ll make it up to you, I promise.”
“There’s nothing to forgive, Patrick. It was just
a moment, you lost control, that’s it.”
“It should never happen again.”
I look at him, tilting my head and trying to
figure out what this means. “And what does that
mean exactly?”
“You have to promise me that if something like
that should happen again where I lose control, for
any reason, in any moment, that you will get far
away from me, kicking me if necessary, so that I
cannot and do not want to hurt you in any way.”
“Patrick…”
“You have to promise me, Erin.”
His words scare and confuse me.
“Please,” he implores me.
“I promise you, Patrick.”
He sighs and comes a bit closer and gives me a
chaste kiss on the cheek and goes, leaving me
perplexed.
I can’t understand why he’s so scared of hurting
me. I know anything could happen with anyone.
Look at Nate for example.
Nate. Thinking of him makes me sad instantly.
Not so much because I miss him but because I
realize how easy it was to set aside my feelings
and not only because he betrayed me and fell in
love with someone else. It was enough for me just
to be near Patrick for a few minutes to understand
