I nod a few times to let him know it’s okay,
even if in reality it isn’t.
“You drive me insane. I completely lose control
when it comes to you and I can’t allow myself to
lose it, do you understand? I could only do
something bad. To both of us.”
“Patrick…”
“Please, forgive me. I can’t stay.”
“Wha… what?”
He sits up with his shoulders towards me. He
drops his head into his hands before speaking to
me without lifting his head.
“I’m no good for you, can’t you see that? You
can’t want this … you can’t want me for you and
your baby.”
He stands up and goes towards the living room
before leaving me with the words that will break
my heart.
“I can’t allow you to fall in love with me.”
Patrick
I sit on the floor under the counter with a bottle of
Jameson in my hand. The others have gone home
while I can’t leave this place because I know she’s
up there alone.
I jumped her like I would any other girl I want
to have fun with. I jumped her with no regard for
her feelings, without thinking, without reasoning.
And then, I walked away. All that sweetness, all
those feelings … they completely destabilized me.
I thought I could do it but she is too much for me,
