I want to be there.
I want to remain here.
This time I want to hear everything and take all
that she’s got to give.
I never thought I would have given in like this,
not in a million years.
And yet, here I am, with no shield, no mask and
no weapons.
I’m naked in front of her with my heart on my
sleeve, vulnerable and all I can do is hope that
she’ll be careful with it, like I will be careful with
hers.
14
Erin
Patrick left the apartment early this morning,
telling me that he would be back at lunchtime and
that he wanted to take me someplace. I don’t know
what I’m doing and maybe neither does he, but I
find myself in front of the mirror trying to make
myself look presentable, hiding the bags under my
eyes with a little bit of concealer. Getting dressed
was even harder. I’m only at the beginning of my
pregnancy, but my hips are already spreading and
so is my stomach, not to mention my chest, which
no longer fits into my usual bra size. I’ll have to
buy some new clothes, but with little money
available, it’s not going to be easy. I’ll be forced to
ask for help from my father and to tell him what’s
happening to his only daughter, who had a
promising career in front of her.
