"You absolutely deserve this, Violet," I say adamantly.
Her head rolls along the wall to meet my gaze. "I hurt you first. I abandoned you. Ghosted you. Broke your hearts. I started all of this."
"We are in control of our own actions, baby. You carry yours and we carry ours. This room, this space just for you is Ellis' way of not only apologizing but showing you how serious he believes you are our future. You and Jamie."
"And you?" she asks, surprising me.
"What about me?" I murmur, reaching forward to cradle her knee in my palm.
She blinks and furrows her brows, making my heart pound. "Are you serious about me? About a future with us? Aftereverything we've all been through and the stupid fucking decisions we've made?"
My answer is immediate and completely honest. "I know, without a shadow of a doubt, that you and Jamie are our future. Ellis and I will do everything in our power to prove our devotion and love."
She hums, and the next thing I know, Violet flings a leg over my lap so she's straddling me. Her voice is breathy, automatically making my dick twitch. "Everything? Even letting me use you to chase away my mean thoughts?"
Fuck me dead."Yes. If that's what you need to feel calm and connected to us, I'll let your sweet pussy bounce on my cock for as long as you want."
"What's the catch?" she murmurs, grinding down now. Her grey eyes flare with lust and feeling. The latter is what I need to keep if I'm going to stick my dick in her.
"You know me so well, baby," I say with humor and groan as her hips swivel. "This isn't a fucking. I want you to keep all your feelings right at the surface. You won't use me to detach. You'll use my fat cock and my loving hands to feelgood. To feelloved."
The flare of panic in her eyes makes me pause, but Jamie's soothing voice a few feet away calms her. "I'm here, my love. I'll watch over you."
I know his presence is truly just to help Violet stay in the moment right now, but fucking hell having him here is kinky and hot. "How 'bout, we let Jamie run the show, baby?"
Her eyes widen and she absolutelymelts."Yes, please."
"Such sweet manners," I murmur and grip her hips.
Jamie draws my attention when he settles himself on the ground a few feet away from us and leans against the other wall. With one leg bent and the other wide, he looks hot as hell.
Ellis chooses that moment to walk by and trips over his feet. "Oh shit. I can go. I'll go?—"
I don't want him to go anywhere and thankfully Violet feels the same. "No, stay. Please?"
Ellis turns and all but throws himself on the ground near Jamie. Close enough to touch but not easily. "As you wish. Continue."
We began this foursome divided. I love that we're coming together again as a unit. A group. And hopefully someday a family.
Thirty-Five
VIOLET
In the back of my mind I wonder if I'm rushing things. Should I make them crawl for me and beg for my forgiveness? Maybe. Or just kick them to the curb? I've thought about it.
Some people would definitely judge me for having sex with them, and I think I'm okay with that. My body is my own and I feel safe, especially if Jamie's the one in control.
I have enough to worry about, so his guidance is a freaking relief. I'm horny, I want to connect with Nate, and I've really been in my feels about them lately.
I think I'll forgive them soon. Their words, the actions I've noticed, and the points of view I'm working to understand are all urging me toward them.
Nate's hands on my hips feel good. Iwantthem there and other places which helps me understand how I'm feeling about them even more.
When Ellis told me he didn't deserve my kisses, I agreed. Then he showed me the room he's working on. A space for me to work, to feel happy and comfortable. My heart lodged itself in my throat and I didn't want to leave.
I wrestled with the concept that I also don't feel like I deserve an entire room intheirhome.
My feelings are valid.
