“Keep your eyes on me,” Phoenix reminded me. I did, but not because I had any fear about seeing someone else if I closed them. There was just no mistaking who I was with.
Every time Phoenix rocked into me, his tight abdominal muscles brushed my cock, causing me to moan because of the sweet, agonizing pleasure of it all. My orgasm was just beneath the surface, but unlike the first one which had snuck up on me, this one was building infinitely slower.
And I knew it was because Phoenix wanted it that way.
His power over me, himself, us, was absolute. His body worked mine expertly. Each time the climax built on itself, I sucked in more of Phoenix’s sounds, smells and flavors. The heat wafting off his body, his powerful muscles flexing beneath my fingers, his sweat mingling with mine…it all just drove me higher and higher. It got to the point that I was afraid of the climax that was coming. I wouldn’t be able to control it. Not it, not myself. On the one hand, it was what I wanted. But now that it was here, I was scared.
“I’m right here,” Phoenix reminded me, his voice hoarse and gruff as he pounded into me. There was no longer any pain or burn. Just pressure and friction and heat. And that coil winding tighter and tighter inside of me.
“I’m afraid of it,” I admitted between ragged breaths.
“I know you are, baby, but you don’t need to be. This is what love really is.”
And I knew that was what I was afraid of. Not the actual fall, butknowing it was the beginning of the end. Knowing what I’d have to do once it was over.
I wanted to resist as long as I could, but when Phoenix shifted his hips and hit that spot deep inside of me, I was helpless to stop the release that shattered me into million pieces.
I screamed as the pleasure rolled over me with the strength of a hundred freight trains. Blackness threatened my vision, but the sound of Phoenix’s guttural cry and the feeling of his cock pulsing inside of me kept me grounded and I forced my eyes open to watch the man in my arms fly apart.
I had no words to describe him in that moment. But I’d remember it forever.
I welcomed Phoenix’s weight as he crashed down on me. I was hot, sweaty and exhausted, but I couldn’t think of any place I’d rather be in that moment. The feeling lasted long after Phoenix withdrew from my body.
And after he gently pulled me from the bed.
And as he lovingly washed me in the shower.
And even as I fell asleep in his arms.
But by the time I opened my eyes just as the sun’s rays began filtering into the room, the feeling was long gone and I was once again cold and empty. And while it didn’t make it any easier to carefully extricate myself from Phoenix’s arms, it was a good reminder the night before had been just that.
A night.
A perfect night that I’d take with me and that would rest beside that other night I’d been carrying around in my mind for seven years.
As I got dressed and walked out of Phoenix’s room, I allowed myself one long last look at him and hoped it would be enough to see me through the coming days.
Chapter 22
Phoenix
I dislikedHenry’s mother on sight.
Partly because when she answered the door, she was wearing just a bra and barely-there boy shorts panties. But it was the way she was wiping at the white powder on her nose that really had me wanting to reach out and shake the woman. Of course, with the way she kept eying me as she leaned seductively against the door, I suspected she wouldn’t have a problem if I did just that.
“Is Levi here?” I asked.
“Levi?” she asked with a wobbly smile. Yeah, she was definitely high.
“Yeah, Levi. Is he here? He babysits for you, right?”
“Oh, yeah,” she said with a big grin. “Nah, he took Henry with him.”
“Do you know where he took him?”
Dina had to think about it for a long time before she shook her head. “If you see him, tell him I need some money. You a friend of his or something?”
“Or something,” I muttered in irritation. I didn’t bother telling her to have Levi call me if she saw him, because I doubted she’dremember the request. I turned away from her and debated what to do next.
