“Is…is everything okay?” I asked, my heart in my throat.
“There’s been no change,” he said softly. “None whatsoever.”
I understood what he was telling me. While some might take that as good news, he wasn’t looking at it the same way. I knew he didn’t want to lose his child, but I couldn’t even fathom the torture he went through every time he saw her, knowing she was just beyond his reach…would likely always be.
“I’m sorry,” I said as I put my arms around him and hugged him.
“I…I was hoping you might come meet her today and then we could take Henry to the park or something.”
I nodded, though I knew it was a terrible idea. Every second I spent with him, the harder it would be to give him up. “Henry and I would love that,” I said.
He nodded and then he kissed me.
I watched him get out of bed and head towards the bathroom. He hadn’t gotten dressed again after our shower so his perfect bodywas on full display for me. My eyes fell to his ass and I once again wondered if he’d meant what he’d said about me fucking him. It just didn’t seem possible.
“You coming?” Phoenix asked once he reached the doorway. From the smirk on his mouth, I knew he’d caught me ogling his ass.
I forced myself out of bed and tried not to stress over how scrawny and pale I looked compared to him. The man could literally have any guy he wanted…
Once I reached him, I went to move past him and into the bathroom, but his arm came out to prevent me from moving forward and then his other arm came up to cage me in against the door frame. If he’d been anyone but him, I would have been scared. But all I was was incredibly turned on. Especially when his dick brushed against mine.
“You see something you like?” he asked as a playful smile spread across his beautiful lips.
I knew I was probably blushing to the roots of my hair, but I nodded anyway.
“Maybe you should take a closer look…get a feel for the goods,” he said.
I smiled at that, mainly because he was having so much fun with the play on words. The night before had been so intense and heavy, but this…this was different. But no less intriguing.
I hadn’t gotten a chance to touch him in the shower. It wasn’t because I hadn’t wanted to, I’d just been too overwhelmed by my own body’s responses to everything he’d done to me.
I lifted my hand to stroke over one bicep, tracing the arcs of heavy black ink. His muscles were rock solid beneath my touch, but his skin was soft. He wasn’t a particularly hairy guy, though he did have the happy trail thing going on that had me curling my toes as I fought the need to explore it.
I slid my hand up to his neck, pausing briefly at his pulse point which was thrumming rapidly.
Was I doing that to him?
It seemed odd that something as simple as a touch to his arm would get him going, but I realized my own heart was racing in mychest and I’d barely done anything yet. I lifted my other hand, ignoring the stinging in my wrist, and caressed his chest. His nipples hardened when I touched them and before I could think too much on it, I leaned forward and swiped my tongue over one of them. Phoenix gasped and I felt his fingers curl in my hair. But he didn’t try to hold me in place. I did the same thing to the other nipple and was rewarded with another gasp.
The idea that I had any kind of power over him was mind-boggling. But when he murmured my name, I knew it might actually be true.
And for the first time in my life, I wondered if there was a chance this pleasure I was feeling would linger if I touched him in the ways other men had always forced me to touch them. Would he feel the way I’d felt last night when he’d had my dick down his throat? He’d acted like he’d wanted it…enjoyed it. And I hadn’t missed the fact that he’d found his own release shortly after I’d taken mine.
I ran my hands up and down his sides and then slipped them around to his back.
“Kiss me,” I whispered. “Please.”
His mouth swooped down on mine, but he didn’t take complete control. He consumed my mouth, yes, but I still felt like I was in the driver’s seat. I let my hands settle on his ass, marveling at the firm flesh. I could feel moisture dripping onto my sensitive cock and I released Phoenix’s mouth long enough to confirm it was mineandhis.
“I meant what I said,” Phoenix said as he reached behind himself and took one of my hands in his. But instead of pulling my fingers away, he urged them down into his crease. I let out a sharp breath when I felt his hole. He dropped his mouth to my ear and murmured, “I can’t wait to feel you inside of me.” Then he pulled my fingers from his ass and stuck them in his mouth to get them wet. I had no clue what he was doing until he urged my hand back to his crease.
“I…I’ve never-”
That was all I got out because I let out a groan as soon he usedhis thick fingers to force one of mine into his body. The grip, the heat…I could have come in that moment alone. As it was, I was grinding my dick against his, but I couldn’t get the pressure I needed.
“Fuck! Yes…” Phoenix said harshly as he pushed back onto my finger until it disappeared completely inside of his body.
“Fuck me with it,” he urged.
