Page 16 of Bleed for Me


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Rocco produces mine from his jacket pocket. Across the altar, a Kavanagh man—young, green-eyed, with ink-stained fingers and an expression that sits somewhere between fury and grief—hands Killian the other. The brother. Rory. I recognize him from the files and note the way Killian's hand brushes his during the exchange, a contact so brief and deliberate that it reads as a private language.

Killian turns to me. The ring in his hand is a simple platinum band, and his fingers dwarf it. He takes my left hand, and the contact sends a second jolt through my system—his skin is rough, calloused, the texture of it alien against my palm. His grip is firm without being aggressive, but I can feel the restraint in it, the conscious modulation of a hand that is calibrated for damage being forced into gentleness. He slides the ring onto myfinger, and the metal is cold, and his eyes are on mine, and there is something in them now—something beneath the dead, flat hostility—that I cannot categorize and therefore cannot control.

My turn. I take the ring Rocco placed in my palm. Killian's hand is massive in mine, the knuckles swollen, a fresh scab splitting across the second metacarpal of his right hand. I slide the band onto his finger with the precision I apply to every action, and I do not let my hands tremble, because my hands have never trembled.

The judge speaks the vows. We repeat them. The words come out of my mouth in the correct order—to honor, to protect, to bind—and each one is a door closing, a lock turning, a room getting smaller. Killian's voice beside me is low and rough, and he speaks the words the way a man speaks under interrogation—giving what is demanded and nothing more.

"You may seal the vow."

The room contracts. Forty-six pairs of eyes focus on the altar with an intensity that has nothing to do with romance and everything to do with verification.

Killian moves first.

His hand comes up to the side of my jaw—not cupping it, not cradling it, but gripping it with a firmness that borders on aggression, his thumb pressing into the hinge of my mandible in a way that is possessive and clinical and devoid of tenderness. He pulls me forward. His mouth against mine, hard and closed and lasting precisely long enough to satisfy the requirement and not a fraction of a second longer. His lips are dry and split in one corner, and I can feel the heat of him, the fury, the caged thing that is pacing behind his ribs.

He pulls back. His hand drops. His eyes are on mine, and the dead flatness has been replaced by something worse—a cold, assessing intelligence that mirrors my own.

You're calculating me.

Yes. And you're calculating me back.

The reception unfolds in the nave. The Kavanaghs occupy the left side. The Falcones occupy the right. The center tables—the neutral zone—remain conspicuously empty.

I stand at the periphery with a glass of sparkling water and watch my new husband drink whiskey with the methodical commitment of a man medicating a wound he refuses to acknowledge. He is on his third glass. He is talking to Rory, who hasn't left his side since the ceremony and who keeps casting glances in my direction that carry a specific voltage—protective, hostile, evaluative. The brother is more dangerous than the intelligence suggested. Not physically. Strategically.

Padraic Kavanagh approaches me. Up close, the decline is more pronounced—the rheumy eyes, the burst capillaries across his nose. He extends his right hand.

"Welcome to the family," he says. The irony in his voice is deliberate and acidic.

"An honor," I reply, shaking his hand with exactly the right pressure. "I intend to take exceptional care of your son."

The words carry a payload, and I watch it land—the way his eyes narrow, the way the handshake tightens by a fraction before he releases it. He heard the threat inside the courtesy. He was meant to.

My father appears at my elbow. He surveys the room with the expression of a man reviewing quarterly returns.

"The Kavanagh boy is drinking too much," he observes.

"He's coping."

"He's undisciplined."

I don't correct him. My father sees what the data shows: a volatile operative self-medicating in a high-stakes environment. What I saw at the altar—the restraint, the modulated grip, the intelligence behind the dead eyes—is information I'm keeping in reserve. My father doesn't need to know that the weapon he acquired may be more sophisticated than the spec sheet indicated. That knowledge is mine, and I will deploy it when it serves me.

"Manage him," my father says. It is not advice. It is an instruction.

The car isa black sedan with tinted windows. The partition is raised.

Killian sits on the opposite side of the back seat, pressed against the door as though maximizing the distance between us within the confines of the vehicle. His tie is loosened. The top button of his shirt is undone. He stares out the window with the fixed, unseeing intensity of a man looking at something internal.

I don't speak. Neither does he. The silence between us is dense with mutual assessment.

The car stops. The building is mine—a glass tower in the financial district. Killian follows me through the lobby without comment, his eyes cataloging the security cameras, the exits, the concierge. He's mapping the territory. Marking the perimeter. It is exactly what I would do.

The elevator opens directly into the penthouse.

Killian steps inside. He moves through the threshold the way he moved through the church doors—with a deliberate, predatory awareness that transforms the act of entering a room into an act of occupation. He stops in the center of the living area. His reflection stares back at him from the floor-to-ceiling glass, superimposed over the city lights, and the image is jarring—this battered, loosened, dangerous figure standing in the middle of my sterile, ordered world like a crack in the glass.

He turns. Looks at me. The dead eyes are gone. What's replaced them is worse—a focused, burning awareness that takes in the penthouse, the art, the architectural furniture, and me, standing by the door with my hand still on the panel where I've entered the lock code.