Judy shakes her head. “Try again, Jen. Let’s just keep to your feelings and what you’d like Adam to do.”
Why do I feel like a naughty toddler? “Fine. Adam, when you wake me up with loud music, I feel annoyed and I wish you wouldn’t. Happy?” I fold my arms across my chest.
His expression turns serious. “Sorry, Jen. I guess that was pretty inconsiderate of me.”
My arms drop back into my lap along with any impending temper. It’s hard to stay mad when he reacts like that.
“Great. Adam, I really liked how you owned the behavior without making excuses.”
Oh perfect. So now he gets a gold star? What is happening here?
Judy smiles. “I think this was a really productive session. I hope you both feel that way. For next time, let’s keep working on your communication. I’ll check in with you in about a week’s time, OK?”
“Great.” Adam grins and wraps his arm around my shoulder. I give Judy a smile I do not feel.
When the chat ends, Adam turns to me. “What did you think?”
I’m about to brush him off with a snarky comment when I remember that just cost me eighty pounds. I sigh. Might as well try what she said, I guess. “Well, honestly I feel a bit frustrated because I feel like I got told off and you got praised. So now I feel like she thinks I’m the problem.”
His eyes widen. “Oh really? I’m sure she doesn’t think that. I’ve done a lot of inconsiderate things.”
There he goes again, cutting the wind from my sails and leaving me floating on a bunch of unfamiliar feelings.
He winks. “Would it make you feel better to tell me about them all while I go down on you?”
I give him a little shove, but I can’t help laughing. “I’m not supposed to make a list, remember? And you’re not supposed to distract me.”
“She didn’t say I’m not allowed to make you laugh…” He leans in and nips at my neck. “And I don’t remember her saying anything about not making you scream either. I still have that dildo on.”
I groan. Even though my pussy gives an excited little flutter, I can feel that it’s tender. “I think that thing broke my vag.”
He hums against my neck. “I’ve never heard you make so much noise.”
“And you liked it, even though you didn’t get off?”
“Liked it?” He pulls back, looking at me seriously. “I fucking loved it. Any time you want me to use that toy on you, you just say the word.”
I snort. “You’re just horny cause you need to cum.”
“No. I don’t think so. I mean, yeah I’m horny as fuck but focused too. I don’t think I explained it very well before, but it actually helps me. I feel like a better version of me.”
A smile I can’t contain breaks over me. I can’t argue with him that he is more focused when he hasn’t cum for a while. “I kind of like it too, even though it makes me feel a bit bad. You’re right. I like this version of you.”
I settle into his arms, tucking my feet up on the sofa and just letting him hold me for a while, like we used to do after I’d had a long day at work. I’ve missed this. Adam always gave great hugs.
I lean my head back against his chest. “Hey, can I ask you about something and will you promise to be honest with me?”
“Of course.”
“Were you serious about wanting me to uh… to fuck other guys if we’re together?”
“What do you mean if?”
I dig my elbow into his belly and he coughs.
“Yeah, OK. I was serious. Really. Why? Are you considering it?”
I chew my lip, testing out my own feelings about it. Why was it fine to bring Luca home to piss Adam off but suddenly not fine when I actually have his consent? “Well, what if you decide you’re not OK with it after all?”
