Page 92 of The Secrets We Keep


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My name isn’t called until nearly the end, listed under “Specialized Recognition” rather than standard achievement categories. The wording is deliberately vague—”unique application of shadow techniques under extreme duress”—carefully avoiding specific mention of the autonomous behaviors that prompted Elara’s formal accusations. The phrase makes my stomach clench with dread.

As I step forward to receive the ceremonial recognition token, I feel the collective assessment of hundreds of eyes—students curious about rumors they’ve heard, faculty evaluating potential threat, Hunter officials documenting every shadow movement for future reference. The attention feels like physical weight pressing against my shoulders. My strengthened shadows maintainperfect conventional patterns despite this intense scrutiny, using every technique gained through blood memory to appear entirely normal.

“Additionally,” Winters continues after all individual recognitions have been distributed, her voice taking on an ominous tone, “the Hunter Council has requested specialized assessment opportunities for students showing exceptional abilities during Trial challenges.”

My stomach tightens as she activates a crystal sphere that projects a list of names hovering above the platform in glowing silver letters. My name appears at the very top like a death sentence, followed by approximately twenty others from various factions—though Dark Nephilim feature prominently in the selection.

“Selected students will receive individual notification regarding their specialized assessment scheduling,” Winters explains with a professional detachment that doesn’t quite mask the significance of this announcement. “These voluntary examinations provide valuable research data while offering enhanced development opportunities.”

Voluntary in name only—refusing specialized assessment would merely confirm suspicions and trigger mandatory containment protocols instead. My strengthened shadows press even closer to my feet, recognizing the implicit threat behind the formal invitation. Through our blood binding, I sense Bael’s distant awareness intensifying, his consciousness focused entirely on this recent development like a storm gathering on the horizon.

As the ceremony concludes and students file from the Great Hall with nervous chatter filling the air, I notice Constantine moving purposefully through the crowd toward my position. His expression remains professionally neutral, though tension radiates from his controlled movements like heat from a forge. When he reaches me, he maintains an appropriate instructordistance while speaking just loudly enough for potential listeners to hear.

“Dawn, a moment regarding your specialized recognition documentation,” he says, gesturing toward a side corridor where administrative offices are located. His amber eyes communicate urgency despite his casual tone. “Standard procedure for unusual achievement classifications.”

I follow him toward the showed passageway, aware of multiple eyes tracking our movement—particularly Malcolm, whose silver-flecked gaze never wavers despite ongoing conversation with other Hunter officials. The intensity of his attention makes the hair on my neck stand up. My strengthened shadows maintain perfect conventional patterns despite growing anxiety about what Constantine needs to communicate with such urgency.

The administrative corridor stretches long and gothic before us, enchanted torches flickering to life as we pass beneath them with soft whooshing sounds. The flames cast dancing shadows that my darkness wants instinctively to join. Ancient stone walls covered with portraits of previous academy officials create the unnerving sensation of being watched from multiple angles simultaneously, painted eyes that seem to follow our movement. The air carries the musty scent of old parchment mixed with magical preservation spells and something sharper—silver polish from recently enhanced security wards that makes my nose burn.

Constantine leads me to a small record-keeping alcove, positioning us beneath an activated silence ward disguised as architectural ornamentation. The magical barrier creates a subtle pressure against my ears. Even here, he maintains a professional posture while speaking in hushed tones that wouldn’t appear suspicious to casual observers.

“The specialized assessment isn’t standard procedure,” he says without preamble, tension clear despite his controlledexpression. “It’s specifically designed for suspected Ascendant identification.”

My strengthened shadows pulse once before settling back into perfect stillness. The word ‘Ascendant’ hits like a physical blow. “What exactly does that involve?”

“Shadow-binding verification,” Constantine answers grimly, his voice barely above a whisper. “Not the voluntary ritual we documented in your records, but forced binding under Hunter protocols designed to separate autonomous shadows from their source.”

Ice forms in my stomach despite the corridor’s ambient warmth. Shadow-binding under Hunter protocols means suppression rather than enhancement—forced separation of my shadows’ consciousness from my own, detection of their true nature through deliberately induced distress response. The thought makes me nauseous.

“Can I refuse?” I ask, though I already know the answer from his expression.

Constantine’s jaw tightens, making the muscle jump. “Officially, it’s voluntary. Practically, refusal would trigger immediate containment under suspicion protocols rather than assessment guidelines. The binding examination provides at least nominal procedural protection.”

“Protection is a fucking strange word for what you’re describing,” I mutter, fear and anger battling beneath my carefully maintained composure.

“The binding is temporary,” he continues, voice dropping even lower until I have to strain to hear. “Designed to last only during the examination session unless anomalies are confirmed, in which case...”

He doesn’t finish the sentence, but he doesn’t need to. If the binding confirms my shadows’ autonomous nature—their living consciousness independent of my direct control—temporarysuppression would become permanent containment, with all the horrific implications that entails.

My strengthened shadows react instinctively to this threat description, pressing so close to my body they nearly disappear completely into the natural darkness at my feet. Through our blood binding, I sense Bael’s distant fury, his protective instinct raging against this development despite his inability to intervene directly within academy boundaries.

“When?” I ask, practical concerns temporarily overshadowing emotional response.

“Three days,” Constantine answers, and the words taste like doom. “The summons will arrive tomorrow morning with formal documentation and preparation instructions.”

Three days before they attempt to bind my shadows, to separate what has become an integral part of my consciousness, to verify through magical suppression what witness testimony and recording crystals couldn’t conclusively prove. My strengthened shadows pulse with genuine fear despite their conventional appearance, the prospect of forced binding creating a primal terror response.

“There’s more,” Constantine continues, checking the corridor briefly for eavesdroppers before proceeding. “Hunter reinforcements arrive tomorrow—a specialized containment squad with enhanced suppression equipment. Malcolm’s requested additional resources following the Crucible incident.”

The situation deteriorates with each passing minute, like dominoes falling. Hunter reinforcements mean increased surveillance, specialized detection equipment, and tactical preparation for potential resistance. The stalemate following my partial wing manifestation has clearly shifted toward active intervention rather than continued observation.

“What about the shadow-fire integration?” I ask, remembering how Constantine’s intervention created a spectaculardisplay that masked my true abilities during the Last Trial. “Could we use that somehow?”

He shakes his head slightly, regret clear in his amber eyes. “They’ll be specifically monitoring for unusual elemental combinations now. Any fire interaction would merely confirm their suspicions rather than conceal them.”

My strengthened shadows press impossibly closer, communicating fear more eloquently than words ever could. The binding would not merely suppress their movement but violate the consciousness they’ve developed—the semi-sentient awareness that’s evolved alongside my own, the protective companion that’s saved my life multiple times.

“There’s one possibility,” Constantine says after a momentary hesitation, something like hope flickering across his features. “But it’s extraordinarily dangerous and directly violates both academy regulations and Hunter protocols.”