Page 120 of Before the Snow Falls


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There were nights the guards would walk the outer halls, see blue-white light strobing under the doors, hear gasps and shrieks and the kind of raw, frantic laughter that meant all the world’s violence and pleasure had tangled into one language—and know: the Sky demon was riding the Fire King again, and no one would sleep easy.

By the time Haneul turned 22, the violence turned into something glorious and constant. Haneul became insatiable, wild in his devotion, climbing into Seungho’s bed at all hours,crawling over the king’s chest, shoving him onto his back, only to end up on his hands and knees, braced, snarling, begging, “Don’t be gentle. I’ll kill you if you go soft on me.” The sounds from their chambers were a war of pleasure—smacks, gasps, the slap of flesh, the thud of bodies hitting walls, the crack of Haneul’s hand across Seungho’s jaw only to be pinned, arms twisted behind his back, ridden until he sobbed, howled and screamed into the bedding, a body made to be conquered and never once diminished by it. Haneul made a symphony of surrender, as if every time he let Seungho inside, he proved the world couldn’t own him but he could give himself—only, ever, to the Fire King.

What he wanted, what he craved, what he trusted, was the Fire King’s weight, his power, his body—inside, over, around, claiming him, restraining him, setting the boundaries so he could let go. He needed to be contained, not tamed. Loved violently, and worshipped with a strength that would not let him slip loose.

Seungho was the only one who could match him—stroke for stroke, bite for bite, force for force. The only man who could hold Haneul down by his wrists and ride him until his mind emptied, who could wrap a hand in his hair and growl, “You want to be ruined? I’ll fucking ruin you until you beg for mercy.” And Haneul would scream, would buck, would lose himself in it—because the only way to feel safe was to be utterly possessed and contained.

Sometimes Haneul would wake in the night and, half-dreaming, crawl over Seungho’s sleeping body, rut against him like a starving animal, demanding, incoherent, trembling. And the Fire King—sleep-heavy, burning—would flip him over, press him into the mattress, and fuck him slow, deep, relentless, until Haneul shook apart and clawed at the sheets, sobbing his name.Only then would he collapse, curl up in Seungho’s arms, bite at his throat until he slept.

It was never just lust. For Seungho, Haneul was unlike any lover before. Nobody had ever made him want like this. Haneul was storm and steel and hunger. There were nights Seungho took him with gentleness, stroking his hair, worshipping the curve of his back, and Haneul would scoff, slap his chest, demand “Harder, more—don’t go soft on me just because you think I’ll break—” and Seungho would laugh, rough and loving, and give him exactly what he needed.

But there were nights, too, when Haneul’s madness faded, when his storms burned low and he turned into something almost fragile. He would bury his face in Seungho’s chest, tremble, whisper, “Don’t let go. If you let go, I’ll explode.” And Seungho would gather him in, arms like armor, and hold him through the darkness, through the aftershocks, until dawn bled gold through the curtains.

No other lover, not in a lifetime of concubines, queens, courtiers, had ever lit him up like this madman.

No one else had ever let him be the man he truly was: dominant, relentless, burning, rough but never cruel. No one else could take what Haneul took and beg for more.

No one else had ever been so untouched, so unbroken, so pure in his violence and trust.

Every night Seungho fucked him was a revelation—of hunger, of need, of a kind of love that was all teeth and open hands. He felt young again, mad again, alive in every muscle. Haneul was his first man, his first storm, and every time Haneul came apart under his hands, every time that golden core flickered and bloomed, Seungho knew he was the first—first to be trusted, first to be wanted, first to be allowed inside. That knowledgemade him gentler sometimes, even when Haneul growled at him for it—because in that mad, ice-born bastard, Seungho found the only thing he’d ever truly wanted: a partner who needed not to be tamed, but to be held until the shaking stopped.

In public, their dynamic was a war. In bed, it was a covenant. The whole palace learned to fear the sounds—cries, moans, sometimes a crash of broken porcelain, sometimes a laugh so wild it seemed a god had gone mad with joy.

By the beginning of their fourth year together, there was no shame. No secrets left. Haneul was still untamable. The more Seungho claimed him, the wilder, freer, more beautiful he became.

And the love between them—violent, loyal, growing fiercer by the year.

Their nights were wild, violent, filled with laughter and bruises, with Seungho’s voice rough in Haneul’s ear, “You want it, you fucking fox? Beg for it,” and Haneul snarling back, “Fuck me until I can’t walk, king, or I’ll leave you for a real man,” always taunting, always provoking, always desperate for the moment when Seungho’s patience finally snapped and he was thrown down, ridden, loved until the world dissolved. There were tender moments, too—quiet nights when Haneul curled into Seungho’s chest, spent and shaking, and let himself be petted, kissed, stroked, as if learning—one night at a time—what it meant to be cherished, not just conquered.

Seungho worshipped him in bed, kissed every scar, every bruise, every place where pain had once lived, replaced it with heat and love. He whispered, “Mine,” again and again, not to claim, but to promise: I will hold you, I will match you, I will never let you break alone.

And every time Haneul came—loud, wild, face twisted in ecstasy, eyes shining gold and blue and silver—he gave that first, that only, that everything, to Seungho. He’d never done it for anyone else. He never would.

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So when YeolJaewan, Seungho’s childhood friend, arrived after a few years of absence, he found them in the king’s solar, sprawled together, Haneul half-naked, sprawled across Seungho’s thighs, both of them still rumpled and marked from the night before. The new friend bowed to Seungho, but it was Haneul’s fierce, crooked grin he met first.

“You must be Haneul,” he said, eyes sparkling, refusing to look away even as Haneul’s core flared golden with suspicion. He recognized him instantly, the boy Seungho had been stalking and staring at the autumn festival, years back. It was impossible not to remember that rare, enticing mix of beauty, temper and lunacy.

“And you’re the one who’s supposed to talk sense into him?” Haneul snapped, then flashed a snarl of a smile, more wolf than courtier. “Good luck.”

Seungho only laughed, arms lazily bracketing Haneul’s ribs, chin resting in snowy hair, utterly unashamed. “You’ll get used to him. Or he’ll kill you and hang your hair knot from the flagpole. Either way, you’re welcome”.

Jaewan raised his cup, grinning. “To surviving storms. And to the first king in history who found a lover wild enough to make the palace shake.”

Haneul cocked his head, studying the newcomer with that sharp, distracted intensity that could turn from interest tothreat in a breath. But for once, he didn’t snap. He only said, “If you try to separate us, I’ll bite.”

Jaewan just smiled, unruffled. “I’m not here to take sides. Only to witness.”

And for that night, in the flicker of lamps and the shadow of silk, three men sat together, and the world, for the briefest moment, felt almost safe.

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For the first time in the Fire King’s palace, the glow at the heart of the throne room wasn’t just fire or frost or tension—it was laughter.

YeolJaewan fit into their lives as if he’d always belonged: long-limbed and elegant, quick-witted, silver-streaked at the temples though not yet old, his eyes alive with the kind of mischief that made servants relax and generals roll their eyes. He sat at Seungho’s right hand in council, pouring his own wine, ignoring protocol, always with a story, a sly wink, or a lazy jab at Seungho’s pride.

He became, overnight, the only man in the kingdom who could call Haneul “little fox” without losing a finger.