“Trust me when I tell you that you will have no problem loving any child you will have. It changes something inside you.”
I blink in surprise at his choice of words. “Sounds like you are speaking from experience.”
“I’m not,” he says, flatly. “The last thing I am is a father.” His eyes are blank as he stares at me, hiding any trace of emotion that may want to arise. Nodding slightly, I let it go. If he wanted to talk about it, he would. His shoulders relax a bit when I don’t press him. “You can’t live in fear of your dad’s choices. You are not him, Knox. Savi sees that, and so do I. I’ve looked evil in the face, and you are not it.”
“It’s hard not to feel like I am on some days,” I sigh.
“That’s because you spent most of your life with dark thoughts in your head, but they’re not yours to hold anymore. You’ve got Savi now to wash them away. Which,” he says, looking me straight in the eye, “brings me to your next‘whatif’of losing her. Living in the future will fuck you up. It’s unpredictable for everyone, the good and the bad. You have her now, Knox. Love the fuck out of her every single goddamn day like it’s your last. Girls like Savi don’t come along often, but when they do, you need to fight like hell to hold on to them.
Standing up, he pats my shoulder before walking away.
He’s right.
I’m living in the future too much and need to focus on what I have now. Pulling out my phone, I pull up Savi’s number and shoot off a text.
Knox
Don’t make plans on Sunday. I have somewhere I want to take you.
I see the three dots appear and smile that I caught her between appointments.
Savi
Do I get any hints?
Knox
No
I wait for her next text, knowing damn well she’s not done trying.
Savi
Pretty please? How will I know what to wear?
I knew her beautiful little head would try to get more information out of me.
Grinning, I text back.
Knox
Wear clothes.
Savi
Well, that doesn’t sound like fun.
Chuckling, my thumbs fly over the keys.
Knox
I didn’t say you would be wearing them for long.
Savi
That’s better ;)
Savi
