Trell gave me an evil ass stare, and I watched his hard dick go limp. I knew exactly how to fuck up a nigga’s wet dream. When he came back into the room, he cleaned me up with a warm towel. I could tell that he had an attitude, but I didn’t care. He made that bed, so now he had to lie in it.
Once Trell got out of his feelings, he turned on our favorite show and we caught up on it while eating snacks until it was time to get dressed for dinner. I couldn’t wait to see the look on Moni’s face when she found out we were having two boys. This shit was so wild and unbelievable to me. The best part about it was that they would have Cadence as their big cousin to look up to. Our boys would grow up together, and I was so happy about that.
I would tell my family the good news on a separate occasion. My family was too hood for me to gather all of them at a nice restaurant. We were more of a backyard barbecue type of family. They were all going to be happy because no one ever thought I would have kids. I didn’t even think I would. If my relationship with Trell was on good terms, I would have been even more excited about those boys. This just wasn’t really the ideal situation that I wanted to bring two kids into. All I could do was make the best of the situation and not dwell on what could have been.
We got dressed, and I did a light beat to my face. Trell complimented how beautiful I was at least ten times. I wasnow sixteen weeks, and my baby bump was definitely showing. Looking in the mirror, I had to agree with Trell. I looked beautiful and was glowing like crazy. He didn’t look bad at all either. Trell had on a black button down Versace shirt, some black jeans, gold cuff links, and a gold Versace watch. My favorite scent could be smelled on him from across the room. No matter how moist I got by looking at him and smelling his cologne, it would take a miracle to ever let him touch me again. Thankfully, we were getting to a point where we could chill and build a bond that would be great for us to co parent.
Moni and Rowdy were waiting outside the restaurant for us to arrive. The valet took Trell’s car, and we all went inside and waited to be seated after greeting them. Outside the restaurant was a gold elevator that we had to ride underground to the bottom level in order to get to the restaurant. It was super nice, and the atmosphere was everything. Unable to wait, Moni kept asking me to secretly tell her what the news was, like she was a kid or something. I shook her off my arm and ignored her until we were seated. We ordered drinks, and as we waited for them, Moni and Rowdy threw what they had guessed in the air.
“Moni thinks y’all are back together, but I went a little further and said I think y’all done got engaged. Being that he took you to y’all new crib, and y’all rode here together, one of us has to be right.” They both smiled with excitement.
“Wrong and damn wrong. Trell is just my baby daddy. Y’all can hang up all that extra shit. I gave that nigga back to the streets long ago.” I laughed, but no one joined in.
Trell’s menace to society ass had the nerve to look like his feelings were hurt. Moni gave me a stern look like I had done something wrong and was being chastised for it. I didn’t care, though. For the next eighteen years, I was gonna give this nigga hell for breaking my heart. Trell caught a body for me and neverasked questions before or after doing it. I knew how he felt about me; that still just wasn’t enough to unbreak my heart.
The men ordered steaks, and Moni and I ordered lamb chops at her recommendation. I wasn’t really into trying new foods, but after bragging on how good they were, my best friend had me sold on trying it.
While we ate, I allowed Trell to make the announcement. I wiped my hands and then took the ultrasound out for them to see. Moni jumped up and down in her seat, and Rowdy got up and grabbed Trell in a big bear hug. As the guys had their moment, Moni rubbed my stomach and almost cried.
“This for real, Ciara? Boys? I love this for us so bad. I wanted it to be boys, Ciara. You know you didn’t need to be having no girls. You too rough for that. I hope this brings you and Trell back together. You know he didn’t mean to hurt you. Now, he lets you treat him like shit just to make up for what he did.”
“Don’t you know Trell is a ruthless killer. He is a certified street nigga. I hope after all the wrong he has done, he’s not in his feelings over me not wanting him. If he’s that tender, he shouldn’t be in the field playing tough! Stop worrying about that man! I promise to let him be a father to his kids, and that’s all that matters. Stop taking up for him when you the same bitch who left a nigga for cheating once outta the whole five years.” I whispered to Moni.
“Okay, bitch! I’m out of it. J had an outside child that he hid from me. There was no going back after that. Don’t compare my shit to your shit. You was telling that man you didn’t want a relationship but as soon as he gave another bitch the D, you lost your mind. That’s definitely not the same boo.”
I shrugged and continued to eat my food. Moni was mad at me, but I needed to be mad at her for suggesting these tough ass lamb chops. I was not a fan. For the remainder of dinner, we all talked and laughed. I watched them drink wine andpretended that my sprite was some alcohol. To have the support of my friends meant the world to me. It was really making my pregnancy easier. Trell spent the rest of the night trying to play footsie with me, and I constantly had to stop him.
After dinner, I requested that he take me home, but he told me he had to make a stop first.
I fell asleep on the ride and woke up to the driver’s side door closing. When I sat up, I saw that we were outside of Trell’s old house. He used his key and let himself inside. After I laid my head back over on the window, I saw headlights pull up behind the car. I looked back and saw that same Lexus. The girl who I had caught Trell in bed with was walking into his house behind him.
My blood boiled, and I instantly got a headache. This nigga had some nerve to invite this bitch to the same place I was, knowing she was the reason I hated him now. I got out of the car and stormed into his house, ready to put knots on both of their heads.
“Why would you pop up at my shit? I ain’t been fucking with you for a reason. I blocked you for a reason. My baby momma is in the car, and this shit you doing ain’t cool,” Trell told her.
“Nah, I’m not in the car. I’m right here. What’s going on? You still fuck with this bitch? If not, she wouldn’t be so comfortable popping up like this,” I said to Trell.
“I don’t even live here no more. This bitch is crazy. She been popping up until she caught me here. I haven’t seen this bitch since that day you walked in on us sleeping in my bed. I promise I don’t fuck with this girl. Just ask her. This shit really ain’t my fault today, Ciara,” Trell replied.
“She yo’ baby momma? Well, I am too, and that’s why I came here looking for you. You blocked my number and started ignoring me again for the same bitch. We may as well be sisterwives because I ain’t coming up off you, especially since I’m carrying your seed,” she said as she rubbed her stomach.
I didn’t have my brass knuckles, mace, or my gun so I could pistol whip their asses. A tear was threatening to fall, and I would be damned if I let them see that shit. Trell told her to leave and find her real baby daddy because he never fucked her unprotected. When he looked me in my eyes and pleaded for me to believe him, I could tell that he was speaking the truth. I walked to the front door, closed, and locked it.
“If you really don’t give a fuck about her, and you know she’s the reason why I feel the way I do about you, fix this shit right now. As long as this bitch gon’ keep popping up and making me not trust you, we’ll never be together. Seeing you lay up with her replays in my mind every day, and I keep having to relive that heartbreak. We had a good day today, then I looked up, and here the fuck she is again. I can’t deal with this shit, Trell! Fix it!” I barked.
Trell snatched her purse from her hand, then he grabbed her phone and keys from inside it. He powered her phone off as she fought with him to get her things back. I rolled my eyes as I watched Trell and his whore go at it. I didn’t know how we would ever get past this. This bitch was like a disease that wouldn’t go away, and now she was claiming to be pregnant by him.
Trell saw the disappointment in my face, and he tried to plead with me. I expected him to have kicked this bitch in her stomach or something by now. Seeing the look on my face, he body slammed her to the ground and walked to one of his back rooms. As she tried to pick herself up, I heard him searching through things. I used all my strength and kicked her back down on the floor, making sure I put extra pressure on her stomach.
Call me what you want, but my kids were going to be Trell’s only children, and I was gon’ make sure of that. When he came back into the room, he had his gun pointed at her head. I felt likehe was using that tactic to get me to tell him it wasn’t that deep, but knowing that she fucked him after I had been dealing with him, it was definitely that deep to me.
“What the fuck do you want me to do, Ciara? I told you that I’m sorry. I love you and don’t want nobody but you. This bitch is slow, mane. I don’t fuck with her. She still thought I lived here, so you know she not fuckin’ with me. What do you want from me? What you want me to do?” he pleaded.
“You already got the silencer on. Pop the bitch! You gave this hoe something that was supposed to be only for me. I can’t get over it, knowing that she will still be around here somewhere.”
When I said that, the chick immediately started begging and pleading for him to just let her leave. It was too late for that, though. She came there looking for a problem, and that’s what she was gonna get. The ball was in Trell’s court. If he was as sorry as he said, it would be no hesitation. Just as the chick tried to get up off the ground, I heard apewsound. She was hit in the head, causing her to lay back down for good.
“You happy? Can we start over now? I told you this hoe didn’t mean shit to me. You and my family are all that I want and need. I love you, Ciara.”
