If I hit one more red light, I’m going through it. Consequences be damned. Her hands been slowly sliding up my thigh for the last five minutes and it’s taking everything in me not to pull over on the side of the road. Her fingers dance up and down my leg as she toys with me. She knows exactly what she’s doing. And what makes it worse is she’s doing it while looking out the God damn window. Like this is a game.
Red light.
“Fuck!” I hit the steering wheel as I hit the brakes.
Her fingers dig into my inner thigh from the car stopping so fast. She narrows her eyes at me with those pursed lips. How can she look so fucking perfect even when she’s glaring at me?
Have I really just been avoiding the inevitable these last six months? Because, as of right now, I don’t see this going any other way. She asked me if I loved her. It took me a moment to answer her. Not because I was unsure, butbecause it was the surest that I’ve ever felt about anything in my life and it scared the fuck out of me.
I love this woman.
“Myles?”
“Yes, Sunshine?”
“Green light.”
Fuck yes. Just a few more miles to my house. We’re finally out of the main city.
Her hand goes back to mindlessly stroking my leg, and I can feel my cock thickening in these pants. I can feel the drag of her nails along the inner seam as she inches closer.
“Mina…” No sooner does her name leave my lips, her hand grips my cock.
“Drive, Myles. Don’t talk. Just. Drive!”
Fuck. How the fuck can I concentrate when she’s got me by the balls…Literally.
“Sweetheart…You’re making it difficult to…”
“You left me for six months, Myles. Six. Fucking. Months. You think this is torture?” She tightens her grip on my cock, and my fingers grip the wheel tighter. “You have no idea what I went through when you left. I had just killed a man who had been in my life for five years. Then I find out the man I was falling for turns out to be the man I remember from my childhood…I didn’t remember your face, not until you left me a photo album of memories and the house that has filled my dreams for the last twenty years.”
“Mina, I’m…”
“Let me finish!”
I nod and continue driving toward my home. She thankfully loosens her grip, and I can breathe easier.
“I’ve spent the last six months questioning so much…Were they going to trace his murder back to me? Would Jaz find out? Or Cash? Would I be able to start my life over in Vegas? All these questions went through my mind daily, but there was one main one that hurt the worst…Why wasn’t I enough for you to stay?”
She pauses for a moment. Her hand leaves my leg, and she holds her hands in her lap. I can see her fighting the tears as she continues.
“There was only one thing that I was sure of, and it nearly killed me every fucking day...” She pauses and stares out the passenger window. I reach over and take her hand in mine.
“And what’s that, Sunshine?”
“That I was in love with you.” She lets out a small huff as she turns back from the window. “I knew from the morning after we met. When you showed back up and took me to breakfast. That’s why I went after you in that storm. That’s why I ran for miles into town to try and save you. That’s why I killed Declan. I knew he was going to kill you, and I couldn’t let that happen. I love you, Myles. So I’m asking you this now…Am I enough for you to stay this time? Because if not, then stop the car and let me out right now because I can't go through that again…I…”
I pull the car to the shoulder along the ravine, and barely throw it in park before I’m grabbing her by the face and kissing her. It’s painful and raw, but it's fucking necessary. I need her to believe that this is what I want. She is what I want. By the time I break the kiss, but still keeping her face cupped in my hands, both of us are gasping for air.
“Mina. I knew from the moment I looked into youreyes that my life was never going to be the same.” My fingers gently wipe the tears from her cheeks that I made her cry. “I turned away every woman at that club except you. When your eyes locked on mine, it was like the rest of the world faded into darkness, and you were my only light. You are my light in the darkness, Lumina. Before finding you, my life was an endless cycle of depression. But you brought the life back into me that night.”
I kiss her again as I pull her over the center console to straddle my lap. I’m glad I listened to the dealer and got the windows all tinted because I can't wait any longer.
Her hands rest on my shoulders as her dress rides up to her hips. My fingers run along her outer thighs, and I can feel them tensing and clenching me.
“It was never that you weren’t enough, Mina. Please don’t ever think that. I wasn’t enough…I still don’t know if I am, but I’m willing to try. This is it for me…you are all I will ever want or need. I love you, Lumina.”
Her hands tangle in my hair as our lips touch. Fuck. How have I gone this long without her? It’s like I can finally breathe again knowing she’s with me. When I found out she had moved to Vegas to start her new life, I cursed the universe. I thought it was a fucking ironic joke to have the only woman I think I’ve ever truly loved living within the same God Damn city as me. I’ve had to watch her from afar these last six months. I kept my distance, but I always still felt like I needed to be near her.
