He knows me so well.
“Yes. Nervous.” Benji clasped Van’s hand, bringing him closer. “But I want this. I promise.”
“Where do you want me to be?” Van asked, raising their joined hands to kiss Benji’s knuckles.
He wasn’t sure where he wanted Van, except that he needed him nearby. Not across the room. “On the bed.”
Joshua gently arranged Benji in the middle of the bed, on his back with a pillow tilting his hips up. Van brought lube and several condoms over, and then sat near the headboard, his hip close to Benji’s head. His face was upside down, but he never lost that sexy smirk that had caught Benji’s attention way back on that long-ago July night.
“I love you,” Benji said. He needed to say it before anything else happened. And to Joshua. “I love you too.”
“So do I,” Joshua replied. He brushed his lips over Benji’s. “Both of you.”
“Yeah,” was all Van managed, but the tight, hoarse way he said it told Benji everything he needed to know.
Joshua picked up a condom. “I want to ditch these one day, if you guys agree.”
Van’s nostrils flared. “Yeah?”
“Yes.” He squeezed Van’s knee. “I want to feel you bare inside me. We’re exclusive, the three of us, and I don’t see any of us cheating on the other two.”
“Hell no.” Van swallowed hard. “Ben?”
Benji’s belly wobbled. He kind of hated having this conversation while he was in a supine position on the bed, the others looming over him. “We are exclusive. I’m not sure about, you know, the mess.”
Joshua laughed and kissed him again. “God, I adore your fussiness. We know the trust is there, if we all get tested and ditch condoms. How about we negotiate the details later?”
“Deal.” Benji stroked Joshua’s cock. “Make love to me?”
“Fuck yes.” He suited up, and then Van squeezed lube onto his fingers. He pressed that lube into Benji with one, then two fingers, prepping him with care and love, and Benji relaxed. Opened himself to his first boyfriend, while his second watched.
The initial press of Joshua’s cock made him tense up. Joshua stroked his erection, kissed his mouth and cheeks, until Benji’s instinct to fight the intrusion was beaten back by pleasure and need. Joshua slid inside with small, gentle thrusts, taking his time, until he was fully seated. Joshua propped Benji’slegs on his shoulders. Planted his hands on the bed by Benji’s head.
Benji was so full, almost too full, and he needed Joshua to move. To do something besides stare down at him in wonder and awe, while his dick was buried to the hilt in Benji’s body.He dared to meet Joshua’s glistening eyes and almost wished he hadn’t.
“Every time you give me this is a gift,” Joshua whispered. “One I will never take for granted.”
Benji’s eyes burned. “Don’t you dare make me cry.”
“No, baby. I’d rather make you scream.”
Uh-oh.
Joshua pulled back, then thrust in hard enough to make Benji gasp. The second thrust scraped his prostate, and Benji yelped. Joshua set a brutal pace that had Benji’s eyes rolling back, desperate cries falling from his lips, unable to do more than hang on tight andfeel. Then his right hand flailed out on its own, seeking something.
Van’s hand grabbed his, and that was exactly right. He needed Van. Van was part of this too. Benji needed him to be part of this, not a spectator.
“Kiss him,” Joshua said.
Unsure who he was telling, Benji let Van come to him. Van thrust his tongue into Benji’s mouth, while Joshua thrust into his ass, and all Benji could do was take what they gave him. He wanted all of it, whatever they offered; he loved them, and they loved him, and that was everything.
Joshua came first with a shout, buried deeply in Benji’s ass. He pulled out slowly, leaving Benji aching and desperate for his own release. Van released his mouth, but didn’t stop touching his hair and face.
“What do you want, beautiful?” Van asked. “How do you want to come?”
The joint curiosity and arousal in Van’s expression nearly made Benji say something he wasn’t quite ready to ask for: to have Van inside him. Something else intrigued him, though, after watching Van and Joshua together so many times, both in person and onscreen. He shoved the pillow aside and sat up.
“I want to fuck Joshua,” Benji said.
