And yet worth it. To finally quiet the roiling feeling inside her chest whenever she looked Lily’s way was its own form of vindication.
Eva raised her head. Lily’s was tilted back against the wall, her lips parted to draw in ragged breaths, her eyes dark and her pupils blown wide.
Lily’s eyelashes fluttered when Eva rucked up the skirt of her dress and pushed soaked cotton aside. She spread her legs for Eva’s searching fingers, and Eva found Lily slick and aching.
She was so wet, Eva’s fingers sliding through her folds, and at the first swipe of her clit Lily’s hips jerked, her hands tangling in Eva’s hair. Eva loved nothing more than having a woman at her mercy, but knew she didn’t have time to tease.
Knew they shouldn’t be doing this in the first place—certainly not there.
Eva pressed two fingers inside oh so easily, and when she added a third, Lily breathed out a curse. Eva took in the sight of her—head back, eyes screwed shut, lips parted, eyeliner smudged and sweat sticking her hair to her brow—and knew it would be burned into her memory for years to come.
Eva worked Lily up with broad strokes, letting Lily pull her into a kiss that turned messy as she circled Lily’s clit with her thumb. Lily’s whole body tensed when she came, her hands tight in Eva’s hair, pulsing around Eva’s fingers.
Eva knew she should slip away, once Lily had stopped quaking. Should come to her senses, excuse herself to the bathroom with the promise of never speaking of it again, but when Lily reached for her with her hands, Eva didn’t bat them away.
This had been building for months, and Eva didn’t know how she could possibly pull away.
Lily surged forward and switched their positions, pressing Eva against the wall and her mouth to Eva’s neck. Her teeth scraped across Eva’s skin as her hands slid over Eva’s hips. Lily wasted no time in diving her fingers beneath the skirt of Eva’s dress, and Eva wondered if the urgency was because of where they were, or because Lily thought Eva might push her away at any moment.
But Eva didn’t know how to summon the will, not with Lily cupping her through damp lace, palm of her hand grinding against Eva’s clit. Fuck, that felt better than it ought to, Eva’s teeth clamping around her bottom lip to smother a moan.
She felt Lily smile against her neck, lips pressing open-mouthed kisses to her skin as Lily tugged Eva’s underwear aside, the pads of her fingers exploring slick skin.
Teasing touches turned deliberate, Eva’s knees trembling when two fingers pressed inside her, Lily’s thumb settling at her clit, teeth working at her neck and making her head spin.
Eva splayed one hand against Lily’s back as her hips rocked into Lily’s touch, her other cupping a full breast, thumb flicking over Lily’s nipple.
“Fuck,” Lily whispered into Eva’s skin, driving deeper. Eva’s heart thundered in her ears, her breathing ragged. Lily’s fingers curled and her thumb circled faster and…goddammit, Lily wasn’t supposed to be so good at this…the breath was knocked from Eva’s lungs when she came, Lily coaxing her through the aftershocks as her vision went white.
“This is not how I thought this night would go,” Lily said as Eva tried to catch her breath.
Eva agreed wholeheartedly, tilting her head back and admiring the glow of the stars above. “Me either.”
God, what had she done? All those weeks of trying to keep Lily at arm’s length, of not letting her get too close ruined in a single moment of surrender.
How could they carry on as usual now that Eva had felt Lily fall apart in her arms? How could Eva stop herself falling if all it took for her walls to collapse was Lily stepping close?
Eva stiffened in Lily’s arms, feeling like she was suffocating with the press of Lily’s body against her own.
“It was fun, though, right?”
Eva noted the quiver of vulnerability in Lily’s voice, the uncertain look in her eyes when Eva looked down, and Eva swallowed, her throat feeling tight. “Yes. Could you not tell?” Eva raised an eyebrow, and Lily’s breath puffed against her collarbone when she chuckled.
Lily’s eyes were bright in the darkness, her smile glittering like the stars above, and Eva pushed down any feelings of warmth the sight flooded through her chest.
“We should head back,” Eva said, because the longer they stayed, the more likely someone would notice they were missing. “Before anyone comes looking.”
“Right.” Lily stepped back, running a trembling hand over the skirt of her dress and smoothing it back into place. “I’ll go first. See you out there.”
Lily glanced back at Eva before she slipped through the door, taking one last look. Eva watched Lily go, her heartbeat ringing loud in her ears, wondering what the hell she was supposed to do now.
* * *
Lily wished she could possess even a modicum of Eva’s composure as she watched Eva from across the room. Aside from a few flyaway strands of hair, and a flush high on her cheekbones, not a trace of what had transpired lingered on her skin.
But Lily…
Lily couldn’t stop thinking about Eva rocking her hips against Lily’s hand and digging her nails into Lily’s skin.
