Silence falls between us as we quietly drink our beers.
“Fine, you can stay, but no funny business.” I point at him.
“Promise.” He smirks.
And he did as promised.
It was disappointing to wake up alone in the morning, but it was nice being held all night.
51
DERRICK
We are back briefly from the best weekend of my life at The Paradise Club before we disappear again to Hawaii for Isla and Finn’s weekend. I am in the middle of award season, but thankfully, the important ones are just before we leave and then after we return, so that worked out well for me. Chance kept his word and never bothered me for the rest of the weekend, and it was interesting seeing him indulge in both sexes openly at the resort. Maybe because of where we were, he felt comfortable enough to explore more, plus knowing no one can talk about what they see at the resort is also freeing. Way more people there have more to lose than yourself.
There’s a knock on my office door. When I look up it’s nine at night. Where has the time gone?
“Hey, it’s me,” Chance says, bringing in take-away. I’m surprised to see him, but my stomach is excited over the prospect of food. “I know you’re busy, and I didn’t think you would have time to eat.”
“You’re right. I haven’t eaten.”
This makes Chance smile. “It’s just a salad, nothing special.”
“Thank you. I’ve been so focused on work that I’ve neglected myself,” I say, grabbing the salad bowl from his hands.
“Lucky I’m here,” he says, tucking into his salad.
This is so nice of Chance to do, but I am slightly skeptical of his intentions because he has been checking in on me since we’ve arrived back, but not enough to concern me, and I hate that I am second-guessing his motives. We sit and talk and laugh while we have dinner. Chance then cleans up and escorts me home, he has been doing this every night for the past couple of days. It’s confusing because even though I’ve told myself several times not to fall for him, my stupid, idiotic heart has other plans.
“Derrick,” Chance calls my name as I open my front door. I turn around, and he grabs my face and kisses me.
Oh no.
Except I’m kissing him back.This is bad, very bad.I can’t seem to stop myself, he is guiding me inside my home and slamming the door behind me while pushing me up against it. I’m lost in the moment, knowing the consequences are going to be dire for me, but I keep rationalizing it all in my head that things are different, that he’s getting the help he needs. From what I have heard from Blake, he hasn’t touched drugs since rehab. Maybe this time things might be different.Except he’s still in the closet.Chance pulls me away, and we stumble through my home as we start to shed each other’s clothes. We are naked by the time we make it to my bedroom. Chance grabs me by the neck, ripping his lips away from mine, and pushes me over my armchair. He’s never been so forceful with me before. He then slaps my ass, and the sting sends a direct message to my balls and my dick, making it stand to attention. He then pulls open my bedside table, grabs the lube, and squirts it against my ring. The cool liquid is nice against the heat radiating from me, he doesn’t give me a chance before pushing himself inside me as if he’sangry with me. Have I done something to upset him? He then reaches for my neck and pulls me against his chest.
“You’re a fucking tease, Derrick. All week I’ve walked you home and my dick has been so fucking hard, waiting for you to notice me, see me, again.” He growls as he takes what he wants from me. “Teasing me with those come-hither eyes, that fucking mouth that I know delivers sin.” I had no idea he thought like that about me. “My dick has been hard all week. No amount of my hand has been able to quench its need. Till now. My dick is fucking rejoicing being inside you again. Your fucking tight hole is heaven.” I’ve never heard Chance talk to me like this. The fact that hope is blooming in my chest is scaring me. “You feel like home. My home, D.”Poof!There goes everything I told myself to be careful of as I tumble over the edge with him, and this time, I’m not sure if I care.
After cleaning each other up, Chance kisses me and tells me he will see me tomorrow, and then waltzes out the door.
And true to his word, for the next ten days, he brought me food, walked me home like a gentleman, and then fucked my brains out. It’s been a great stress reliever.
“We won’t be able to do this at the wedding,” I tell him as we cuddle in bed. As happy as I am in this moment, I don’t want my friends to get wind of our reconciliation because I know they will tell me that I’m an idiot, and I guess I am, but if I don’t try then I will always be wondering what if.
“I think that’s a good idea.”
His agreement stings, but we haven’t even talked about what we are. “I’ll be busy with wedding stuff anyway.”
“As long as your bed is free, that’s all I care about,” he says, leaning in and kissing me.
“What happens if someone catches my eyes while I’m there?” Not that there would be, but you never know.
“Guess I’m just going to have to fuck you real good so that no one can catch your attention.” He growls as he launches himself at me and commences round two.
52
DERRICK
We’ve arrived on the beautiful island of Kauai for Isla and Finn’s long-awaited wedding. They arrived with their family earlier than us, taking their own jet as we couldn’t all fit into one, not with families and kids. I’m blown away by the landscape, lush green mountains, waterfalls, white sandy beaches, and the ocean surrounding us. I’m still disappointed that I haven’t seen a dinosaur yet, because if dinosaurs were still around, they would be here on this island.
