They’d kissed a million times, but never before had Kaj felt every blood vessel, muscle, and bone in his body set aflame this way. Taking as much as he gave, Kaj kissed Noah back with ferocity. It was mindless and violent, but purposeful and determined at the same time. A mass destruction before total reconstruction that left them both breathless.
“I’m selfish. I’m unfair, envious, and so fucking complicated. I can’t even say I won’t hurt you again…” Kaj panted against Noah’s bruised lips. This felt like ripping his chest open and offering Noah his beating heart. Though, as long as it was him, he didn’t really care what he did with it. “But, please, stay with me.”
Noah sweetly smiled at Kaj and brought their foreheads together. “I love you, Kaj. I love you with every fucking cell in my body. Nothing will ever change that.” He paused for a second and took a deep breath. “I don’t care about what anyone says, about the press talking shit even before we’ve figured ourselves out. I don’t care about that asshole’s threats. I’m not leaving you. Not now. Not ever. Much less while he’s still breathing.” His words lingered in the air, sounding both like a promise and a threat as he kissed the tip of Kaj’s nose, his forehead, and his lips.
Kaj let out a tired, resigned sigh, feeling completely drained and ready to sleep for a thousand years. However, underneath all that, something fluttered in his stomach. Contentment. Certainty. A sense of safety. And freedom… Light, warm, comforting.
“I love you, too.”
Noah embraced him tightly again, and sighed. “That’s all that matters to me.”
Twenty-three
“Ifyouscream,I’llmake sure you never speak again,” a rough voice whispered against Kaj’s ear as the palm covering his mouth fell away.
Torn between obeying the man’s commands and crying for help, Kaj felt himself gradually sliding into full panic mode. His mind short-circuited, flooding with flashes of his body all bruised and covered in cum, then turned into a bloodied pulp, disposed of in a ditch somewhere so no one would ever find him. The options were endless, but none were pretty.
How the hell did I end up here?
He’d been sleeping in Noah’s room just a few minutes ago, but didn’t recognize the walls around him now. There were no windows or doors, and the air was so thick it felt like breathing water instead.
It’s a dream. Has to be.
Kaj tried to fight back, but he couldn’t.
The weight pressing on his chest was too much.
And he was restrained, hands and feet.
The stranger’s face was a blur. An eerie mirage in the dark.
Kaj’s heart skipped a few beats, trying to catch up with his erratic thoughts.
He should be fucking afraid, and he kind of was. The hunch that always showed him the truth hidden behind the dark veil of consciousness wasn’t there. And that was… odd. Every time he’d had these types of nightmares, it was there, guiding him through the horror in his mind.
“Get off me!” Kaj gritted, his survival instincts finally kicking in.
“Why would I, drummer boy?” The man hadn’t explicitly said the words, but judging by the way he was stroking his hard cock above him, Kaj knew he wanted to use him to satiate his needs. To quench the thirst that didn’t let him sleep at night. “You want this as much as I do. You were begging for it earlier.”
“I don’t!” Kaj struggled against the restraints in vain.
The stranger let out a wicked chuckle. “There’s no use. You’re not escaping this. Not tonight. For the next few hours, you’re mine to ravage however the fuck I want. Now… open this filthy mouth of yours.”
A hand fisted Kaj’s hair while another gripped his jaw, fingers digging in so hard he didn’t have a choice. His mouth opened, and before he knew it, he was choking.
Tears ran down Kaj’s temples as he gagged around the engorged head of this fat…
Salty…
Delicious cock.
What?
Kaj’s sense of self-preservation rang louder in his ears, but he couldn’t help the way his toes curled and his back arched in arousal. This was wrong. This was so fucking wrong, but so good at the same time. The scent of this man, his taste, and how the particles around them vibrated with his groans had Kaj completely intoxicated.
This wasn’t a memory nor a flashback.
He hadn’t been here before.
