“I want you to come.”
“Me too, but not so fast.” He grabbed Noah’s wrist and stopped him, ragged breaths mixing between their lips. “I want... to try something.”
It was dark, but Noah’s eyes had adjusted to it, and with the streetlamps shedding a soft light over them, he could perfectly see the devilish smirk on Kaj’s face.
“Lie on your back,” he commanded.
“What?”
Kaj didn’t ask again. He simply shoved Noah’s shoulder and straddled him. “I’m gonna suck you.”
“What?” This time his voice came out high-pitched.
“You’ve wanted to do this for a while. And I asked you to wait. But I’m ready.”
“Are you sure? You really don’t have to do it if you don’t want to.”
“I want to.” Kaj bit his bottom lip, gently rocking on Noah’s lap.
“But I thought-I thought you didn’t want to do it because…” Noah trailed off, unsure of how to finish the sentence without sounding like an insecure, whiny boyfriend.
“Because what?”
“Because maybe you had doubts or something.”
“About us?” Kaj asked while caressing Noah’s chest.
“Yeah…” He looked away, too ashamed to admit this while staring into his eyes.
“You think we’d still be together if I had doubts about anything?”
“I don’t know. Maybe kissing and jerking off is okay, but sucking… it’s too much for you. Otherwise, why didn’t you want to before?”
“It wasn’t that I didn’t want to. I was just afraid, okay?”
“Afraid of what?”
“I told you. It intimidates me a fucking ton.”
“Because it’s a dick?”
“No, because it’s super intimate. And I’m afraid I’ll gag, or hurt you or something, and make it all awkward. I want you to feel good.”
With those words, Noah’s body slumped down on the mattress, hard and soft at the same time. His heart hammeredin his chest, anticipation nibbling his skin. This was the biggest reassurance. Kaj didn’t have any doubts about his sexuality or his feelings for him. He was scared to mess up. Just like Noah.
“But I’ve wanted to do it for a while,” he continued, moving down a little. “You have the best dick.”
Noah let out a laugh. “You’ve seenthatmany?”
Kaj lifted a shoulder. “I watch porn, and the boys on the swim team aren’t exactly shy in the dressing room. So, yeah, I’ve seen a few, and yours is the prettiest by far.” He wrapped a palm around it and gave it a slow, long stroke. “With the nicest curve and its pink head.”
“Shit...” Noah moaned.
“So, can I?”
“Yes.”
Kaj scooted down on the bed, his ice-blue eyes never leaving Noah’s. He seemed hesitant at first, planting kisses on Noah’s hips, getting closer, closer, closer... until his lips touched the base of his cock, making him gasp. The sensation was unfamiliar. Feathery. Gentle. Wet. His dick throbbed, asking for more. And as if Kaj heard his silent plea, he delivered, sucking him into his mouth.
