StatMan12
That's harsh. Were you actually overstepping?
Yoga4Lyfe
I don't think so? I just pointed out something obvious that they couldn't see. But maybe I should have keptmy mouth shut.
StatMan12
No. If you saw something, you should say it.
Yoga4Lyfe
Even if the other person doesn't want to hear it?
I stare at the question. I picture Scout's face when I snapped at her and the disappointment she clearly felt. Man, I feel like a fucking asshole. It takes me half a minute to come up with a reply that doesn't worsen that feeling.
StatMan12
Even if they don't want to hear it, you should tell them. Especially then. Sometimes we can't see our own blind spots.
Yoga4Lyfe
That's generous of you. The person I tried to help didn't think so.
StatMan12
Maybe they will eventually. Sometimes it takes time to see things clearly. Maybe they had a bad day.
Yoga4Lyfe
Maybe. They always seem to have bad days.
Ouch. It hits like a blow to the throat.
StatMan12
Are you talking about me now?
Yoga4Lyfe
Hah. Are you someone who makes things harder for yourself?
StatMan12
Apparently, yes.
Yoga4Lyfe
Then I guess I am
The winky face makes me smile despite everything. The loss, the penalties, and the fact that I hurt Scout's feelings for no good reason.
We talk until my eyes start to blur with exhaustion. She tells me about working on a project that might change things for her professionally. I try to tell her about the pressure of work. Keeping it light, knowing I can't get too specific without outing myself as a hockey player. Instead, I talk more generally about performing when everyone's watching, waiting for you to fail.
She doesn't try to fix me. I appreciate that she doesn't offer empty comfort or tell me everything will be fine. She just listens through the screen.
Yoga4Lyfe: You should get some sleep. Tomorrow's a new day.
