Page 56 of Surrendering Desire


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Looking at my life from the outside, everything I’d done—other than my foray into kink—was boring as hell. And the only reason I’d dived into the deep end of the kink pool was to keep myself detached from those I played with. Yes, there were some who played hard and loved even harder, but that wasn’t who I was.

With Danny, I didn’t need to hide behind elaborate scenes because loving him was enough for me. It didn’t matter if we were role playing in the themed rooms at DeSires or slowly making love at home, everything we did was perfect.

And yes, I was fully aware that made me sound like a lovesick fool, but I didn’t care.

“I guess that’s everything,” Danny proclaimed as he bounded down the steps outside my townhome. Except, it wasn’t mine anymore. I was lucky that we were in a seller’s market right now; it had only taken a few days after listing the place for several offers to roll in.

Exactly a month after Danny admitted he wanted to move back to Harmony Grove, everything I owned was loaded in the back of a U-Haul and my car was loaded on the trailer. All that was left now was stopping by DeSires to say goodbye to our friends.

“Are you sure you’re ready for this?” Danny asked as he wrapped his arms around me. “This feels like a really big commitment.”

“It is,” I agreed before kissing the top of his head. “But lucky for you, I’m a stubborn man. Once I put my mind to something, I don’t quit until I achieve my goal. In this case, my goal is to grow old with you. So, yes, I’m sure I’m ready to move across the country with you, even if that means being mothered by your mom and having your brothers give me the third degree to make sure I’m good enough for you.”

“You say that now.” Danny and I stood on the sidewalk for a moment, neither of us feeling the need to fill the silence. “But you’d better mean it, because neither of us has a place here anymore. I mean, Justice might let us crash on the floor of my old apartment, but—”

I hooked a finger under Danny’s chin, forcing him to look up at me. “First of all, there’s no way we’d impose on him like that. He’s finally settled in, and your old place isn’t big enough for two people, much less three. And second, I’m pretty sure selling my home and agreeing to drive you home is the ultimate grand gesture to prove how much I love you. Now, let’s go, otherwise we’re not going to get on the road today, and you’ll be the one who has to explain to your mom what you were doing that delayed you.”

“Umm, I’m pretty sure you’re the one who’d have to answer that question because I’m still clueless.” He sucked his bottom lip between his teeth and batted his eyelashes at me. “Of course, if you told me what you have planned, I’m sure I could find a way to spin our plans so I’m not lying to her.”

“Not a chance.” I swatted Danny’s ass, then gave him a gentle shove toward the passenger side of the truck.

There were a few clubs reasonably close to Danny’s hometown, but until I had time to investigate them, today would be our last opportunity to play anywhere other than the privacy of our own home. Knowing this, our friends had planned a kinky going away party. All week, I’d been fielding questions about what Danny was into and his soft limits. Leave it to this crew to make sure our sex life wouldn’t suffer for not having a wide array of role play rooms available at our disposal.

I also planned on caging my boy before we hit the road, otherwise I’d have to deal with him taunting me on the drive.

The truck was too big to park in the employee lot, so I found an empty public lot down the street. Danny waited patiently for me to open the door so he could hop out. He looked tense and wouldn’t make eye contact. I drew him into my side and rubbed his arm. “Is everything okay? You’re not having second thoughts, are you?”

Danny shook his head but didn’t explain the sudden change in demeanor.

“Are you going to tell me what’s bothering you so I can fix it?”

Danny shrugged. He let out a heavy sigh and shook his head. “It’s stupid.”

“Then tell me so I can agree with you and we can get inside,” I demanded. “Otherwise, you’re going to be making this trip with a bruised backside. I know a good spanking will get you to open up to me.”

His eyes grew comically wide as he gaped at me. “You wouldn’t!” He reached down to adjust his semi-hard cock. “I mean, now I really want you to spank me but that’s just mean. Do you know how long we’re going to be in the truck?”

“Fifteen hours, give or take. And if you need it, I could redden your skin again when we get to the hotel tonight. Don’t test me, Danny.” I purposely lowered my voice so it was barely more than a rumble. As expected, the shift from loving boyfriend to impatient Dom had Danny squirming.

If we’d been in the parking lot behind DeSires, I might have bent him over the front seat of the truck and fucked him out in the open, with nothing more than the door to block anyone from seeing how desperate he was for me. That was definitely something to keep in mind in case we found ourselves stopped at a deserted rest area along the way.

“Now, talk to me,” I demanded.

“Okay, but don’t say I didn’t warn you.” He leaned against the still-open truck door. “I know you like me to wait for you to get me out of the car or whatever, but I don’t know what my family will say if they see it. My brothers will tease me mercilessly, and my parent’s will probably be concerned that I’ve gotten myself into another unhealthy situation.”

“Okay.” I pulled him into my arms, rubbing his back until his breathing steadied. Danny still worried about things that were inconsequential in the long run. It was my job to make him feel secure. “Look at me, sweetheart.” When he did, I smiled down at him. “I would never embarrass you. I know there’s going to be an adjustment period. Both of us have to learn how to interact with one another when we’re around family, but we’re going to do that together. And if anyone takes offense with me being chivalrous, that’s on them, not you.”

“You’re right. Like always.” His body sagged against mine. “We can go now. And I promise I won’t keep finding stupid things to freak out about.”

“Nah, you probably will, but as long as you don’t shut me out, I’ll keep on being here to help you realize your feelings and fears are valid.” I slipped my hand into Danny’s. After locking up the truck, we wandered down the sidewalk to the club.

This area had become so familiar to me over the past few months. I still remembered the night I came back to collect my bag and found Danny standing outside in the dark. He’d been so guarded then, and I swore he’d never open up to me. I wasn’t sure I’d ever find a way to properly thank Maverick for meddling and inviting Danny to join our scene. The kid might submit to John, but he was a force to be reckoned with.

“Oooh, are we doing one last scene for the road, Sir?” Danny straddled my thigh as I fought to get the key Jack had given me into the lock. “Is that why you didn’t let me come last night?”

“No, I didn’t let you get off because you were being a brat all afternoon,” I explained. “How many warnings did I have to give you about teasing me about my age?”

“Seven,” Danny mumbled.