Still, I click on it, needing to know what he’s saying. It has to be something important if he’s texting me. We haven’t spoken since the night he left me. The night I once again didn’t go after him. The night I ruined my fucking life.
Alex
Austen’s opening for BrewTech is NEXT FRIDAY and I expect you all to bethere!
Trey
Oh, is the big hot shot finally getting time off the ice?
Hudson
Didn’t know you hung out with us normal folk anymore, Alex.
Alex
*middle finger emoji*
Alex
Here’s the address. No excuses!
The guys send thumbs up emojis and then Alex sends the address.
It’s possible he didn’t mean to send this to me, but why wouldn’t I be included in this? It’s nothisopening, it’s Austen’s. And Austen is still my best friend. Even if he took off to New York and is now living life with his boyfriend.
I always knew Cameron was in love with him, and though it used to annoy the fuck out of me, I’m glad they finally found their way together. It’s what was meant to be and it’s what they both deserve. They’re happy and that’s all that matters.
Going to Austen’s opening is the right thing to do. But Alex will be there.
How do I handle seeing him after all this time? I can’t even stand seeing him on TV. What will face to face be like?
Not to mention we’ll be around all these other people. But maybe that’s a good thing? Maybe the others will be a distraction. Maybe it’ll be so busy that I won’t see Alex at all.
Honestly, it doesn’t really matter. Austen is my friend and I have to go. I have to. So I send a quick text.
I’ll be there.
Paul
Hell yeah, the Mack Truck is going to NEW YORK!
Hudson
Fuck yes!
The other guys send similar responses, but Alex? He thumbs ups my text. I don’t know what that means. He reacted to it, acknowledged it. It wasn’t a thumbs down. But of course he knew I’d go, right? He knows me better than that. He knows I wouldn’tnotsupport Austen.
Dare I think that Alex wants me there?
Not just for Austen, but for him? Could this be anotherchance?
I’m not sure if it’s supposed to be, but it will be if I have anything to say about it.
I can’t keep sitting around my house being miserable. Yes, I love my job and I love my house. But I love Alex more. This town is doing nothing but draining the life out of me. When I’m with Alex, all I feel is alive. I’ve been numb since he left. I can’t keep going on like this.
This is it. This is my opportunity. This is the universe giving me an olive branch for being a dick my whole life. It’s my final chance to fix things. To beg him for another chance.
I drop onto my couch, pulling up an app to find a hotel in the area. May as well head up there as soon as possible. I can’t be too prepared for something like this. And I could use a vacation.
