I’ve also done my research the past couple mornings while I waited for the coffee to brew.
I know to make sure we’re both properly lubed up. I know he needs to be stretched before I go blasting in. I know I need to take it slow and not rush. And yeah, I’ve watched a couple videos to get the mechanics down.
It might be my first time, but I want it to be good. Not just for me, but…
I want it to be good for him, too.
He glances up at me, and I can see the briefest glimmer of vulnerability in his eyes.
Before I can tell him we don’t have to if he doesn’t want to, he sits up, wrapping his arms around me. His hand settles on my ass as he pulls me closer. One hand finds my hair and he grips a handful in his fist.
I cry out, my cock jumping from the touch. God, I love when he does that.
I love what he does to me, inside and out.
“Yes,” he swallows, his voice dark. “Yes, Austen. In fact, Iwantyou to fuck me.”
I don’t miss the smirk on his lips or the glimmer of interest in his eyes.
“But under one condition,” he adds.
My hands slide over his hard chest, fingers deftly pinching and teasing his nipples as I get lost in his stormy gaze. The sound of rain hits the window, a soft pitter-patter like chimes.
“What’s that?” I ask, my voice nearly breathless.
“You let me return the favor,” he says. It takes a minute before I realize what he means.
Oh.
He wants to fuckme.
I swallow as that fact lands. It should make me feel weird, probably even a little anxious, but honestly?
It just makes me feel all warm and fuzzy because it means he wants me the way I want him.
And so much more.
“Even if it’s just once,” he adds. “Try it. With me.”
I kiss him deeply, nodding. “Okay,” I say.
His muscles tense with surprise as he leans his forehead against mine.
“Okay?” he breathes, his shock evident.
“I trust you,” I tell him. “I trust you more than anyone.”
I bought a building for you.
I love you.
I want to live with you and wake up like this every fucking day.
I want to be yours in every way possible.
All the words get stuck, so I kiss him instead.
Tell me you love me.
