Stay alive.
Tell the truth.
“I was thinking about sucking your dick.”
If Embry was startled by my train of thought, he kept it to himself. He let his arms drop and dug his teeth into his bottom lip, his legs widening slightly as he beckoned me closer.
I went like a puppet on a fucking string, abandoning the blunt on the windowsill and claiming my place between his strong thighs, sliding my palms over the denim. On instinct, I buried my face in his neck, breathing him in, but I didn’t stay there for long. “The fuck do you smell like?”
Embry chuckled, low and gravelled. “Chanel. Alexei’s place is full of it, and I didn’t exactly pack for a month locked up in his castle.”
“My kid smell of Chanel too?”
“She does.”
That we could talk about Liliana without guilt and shame settled something inside me. That somehow, the silence we’d bred had given this clusterfuck the space to become normal. “I need you to tell me how she is. Every single fucking thing.”
“I can do that.”
“I know.” I ran my nose along his jaw, searching for the real him below the spicy scent that belonged in a fifty-quid bottle. “That’s why I need you to do it later.”
“Later?”
“Yeah.” I found what I was looking for and pressed my mouth to the magic spot, letting my eyes fall shut. “I’m not putting whatever this is before my daughter, but I need you, Em. I’m losing my fucking mind.”
Embry let me scent him like a feral wolf. Then he threaded his fingers into my hair and tugged me back. “Sucking my dick isn’t going to fix anything that hurts.”
“I know that. I just want you, cielito. Ain’t that enough?”
Embry twisted my hair, tugging so hard that a lightning bolt of heat zapped my cock. His chest rose and fell at a rate that matched mine. Too heavy, too fast. He tilted forward and kissed me, the barest brush of his fucking lips.
Then he leaned back and pushed my head down. “It’s always been enough.”
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I let him guide me all the way down. Then he released me so I could undo his jeans and press my face into where his cock already strained against his black underwear, the head escaping the waistband. I took a heady breath and kissed him through the fabric, revelling in the low sound that grit from his lungs. I’d never done this before, with him or anyone else, but I didn’t stop to wonder if I was doing it right. I just let it happen, the way it was always meant to.
The underwear had to go. I yanked them down just enough to free Embry’s dick and closed my lips around the crown, tongue flicking, tasting him for the very first time, sliding my lips down the shaft.
Embry groaned and his head hit the cupboard behind him. His cock swelled in my mouth, filling my throat, and it was the hottest thing that had ever happened to me.
I hummed my appreciation and kept my lips wrapped around him for as long as I could before the need to breathe won out.
Forearms braced on his thighs, I took a moment to just stare at him. Like, really fucking stare, as if I could excavate his soul and my own and find a place where nothing aboutuswas so goddamn complicated. Where, beneath the heat boiling between us right now, I wasn’t scared, and neither was he.
That place was so far from our reality I knew we’d never reach it, but this moment was the closest we’d ever been.
I descended on his cock again, swallowing him down.
Embry cursed and his fingers found my hair again, nails skimming my neck, the light touch turning me on and inside out.
Fuck me. It wasn’t the first time I’d thought it, and it still felt distant enough that I knew it wouldn’t happen any time soon, even if my daughter’s grandad didn’t assassinate me. But Ifeltit all the same, in my skin and my bones. In my nerves as they zinged and pulsed in time with my lips and tongue on Embry’s dick. With our clothes off and our demons left at the door, we were made for each other, and I wanted every single part of that.
I wanted him to come in my mouth, but he pulled me off before it got that far, breathing hard, eyes hooded and dark.
It took me a minute to realise he was shaking.
