There is no me anymore.
A baby slips out of me.
Crying baby.
I don’t know what to do.
I just can’t.
I can’t look at it.
It has a thing attached to it, a thing that’s still in me.
He’s doing something to it.
I can’t see properly.
I don’t hear the crying anymore.
Everything is so far away.
I feel like dying.
Maybe I can just die here.
I have to push again, and more stuff comes out of me.
He’s walking away.
With my baby.
I want to know where he’s taking it.
But no words come from my mouth.
I am so tired.
I should just close my eyes.
This must be a nightmare.
There is air.Cold air. I become aware of my surroundings. I am freezing.
I open my eyes.
It is night.
Endless pain in my chest.
I am lying between two houses behind a dumpster.
My fingers dig into frozen ground.
My body is in pain.
I bang my head against the brick wall behind me.
Once.
