My cheeks heat. “I think you’re a good man.” He hasn’t been anything but good to me. “I’m sure,” I tell him.
Truth is… I’m more than sure. For the first time, I feel like I might just combust if I don’t feel him inside me. I’ve never felt this kind of need, and I want to experience all of it with him before it’s too late.
If this is the only chance I get to know what sex is supposed to feel like, how good it can be, then I don’t want to waste the opportunity. And I have a feeling that sex with Neo is going to be unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. He hasn’t even touched me yet and I can feel myself getting wetter and wetter just at the thought of what’s about to happen.
“You’re sure?” He doesn’t take his eyes off mine.
I nod my head. “I’m sure. But only if you want to. You don’t have to,” I add quickly.
Shit, what if he’s only doing this for me?
Neo smiles. He shifts his hips, pressing his hard cock against my core. “Does this feel like I don’t want to, Caitlyn?”
Before I can answer, his lips claim mine. My arms snake across the back of his neck, pulling him closer to me. His tongue pushes into my mouth, exploring every inch he can reach. My legs draw up and close around his waist. Gone are all my inhibitions. I need to feel him. I need something.
Neo groans into my mouth, and then he’s pulling himself away. He sits up. “Off,” he says, plucking at my shirt.
I sit up slightly and let him pull it over my head, leaving me in only a pair of panties. Which are next to go.
Neo’s eyes fixate on my ribs, the varying colors of bruises there. His face hardens. “These aren’t new. You didn’t get those from the assholes who mugged you, did you?” He runs a finger over the yellow and green skin.
I shake my head, reaching for the blanket to try to cover myself.
Neo stops me. “Don’t hide from me,solnishko. You are fucking beautiful.” He leans down and presses a soft kiss right over my bruised ribs.
Then he shifts and removes his briefs with one hand while his mouth travels up to my breasts, taking a nipple and sucking. He flicks his tongue against the hardened bud. My chest arches off the bed. My pelvis lifts, seeking the friction I so desperately need. Neo’s fingers slide through my folds.
“Fuck me, you’re soaked,” he says.
“Sorry,” I say, embarrassment taking over. I’ve never been this wet before.
“Don’t be. It’s fucking amazing. I love how easily your body responds to me,” he says, pushing two fingers into my opening. “Fucking hell… I can’t wait to feel this tight little cunt choking my cock.”
“Then don’t wait.” I want to feel him inside me.
Neo removes his fingers. Then I feel the tip of his cock at my entrance. He pauses and looks down at where our bodies are joining as he slowly slides into me. Stretching me. A slight burn is quickly replaced by something else. Something good. I want more. I lift my hips, needing him deeper.
Neo bottoms out and pauses. “You feel so fucking good,” he grits between clenched teeth. “Fucking hell, I’m never leaving this pussy.”
He slides out and back in. My hands start roaming all over his body. His chest and arms are covered in ink. I’d love to explore his skin with my tongue, but that will have to wait. Because right now, I want him to fuck me.
And he doesn’t disappoint. Neo’s movements pick up. He thrusts faster and harder. It doesn’t take long before I feel that same sensation I felt yesterday, pure bliss, taking over my every nerve ending. I chase it all the way to the edge before I jump, screaming out his name. Neo’s thrusts become rigid as I feel a warm liquid squirt inside me. I look down.
Shit. My eyes widen.We didn’t use protection. What the hell am I doing? Oh my god.
“Don’t freak out,” Neo says, his lips pressing against mine. “I’m clean.”
“I am too, but I’m not…” Crap. How do I tell him I’m not on birth control? That what we just did was reckless. I let passion, lust, take over every rational thought. “I’m not on birth control, Neo,” I whisper.
He smiles.Why is he smiling at that?
“It will be okay,” he says. “Whatever happens is meant to happen.”
He leans over and kisses me again. And as his lips fuse with mine, all the panic washes away. This isn’t good. The way he can make me forget logic. I’m going to fall into old habits if I’m not careful.
Chapter Twenty-Three
Iknew exactly what I was doing this morning when I went bareback with Caitlyn and exploded my load inside her. I’ve never wanted to fuck without protection before, but withher, I wanted nothing between us. And there was the thought that if she got knocked up, she’d be tied to me forever.
