“I’m so glad your head is still attached to your body,” I teased as we walked up the walkway on the way to his dressing room.
Even though it was close to ten, we went to dinner with Hollis’ family. It was evident and understandable that Hollis was still on the high from his win. He was extra talkative with everyone. By the time we were done eating, his family was exhausted and ready for bed. As we walked through the casino on the way to the elevators, lots of people called Hollis’ name and some cameras even flashed. His security team always did a great job with keeping crowds and people from getting too close, especially when Chase was around. As we waited for the elevator, Chase leaned against Charles and closed his eyes.
“What, are you tired?” Hollis said as he nudged Chase, causing him to open his eyes.
“Yes, the stress of worrying that Marcos was going to take your head off has worn me out,” Chase teased. “Junior high is rough, and I didn’t know what I’d tell people if your head was taken off.”
Hollis laughed and picked Chase up. Chase immediately wrapped his arms around Hollis’ shoulders and rest his head on his shoulder and closed his eyes again. I knew how Chase felt; being in Hollis’ arms was the best feeling. There wasn’t a safer place to close your eyes.
As usual, mine and Hollis’ rooms were down the opposite side of the elevator lobby than his family’s. I said goodnight to his family, and Hollis carried Chase to his parents’ suite. I lingered and chatted with Jacobi and Zed about the fight to kill some time while I waited for Hollis. He seemed to be taking a while with them. I was sure it was just because they were still gushing over his win. I headed to my room and sat on the edge of the couch and wondered what I should do.
I wanted our usual celebration with just him and me.
But I feared he wanted a party celebration.
He certainly deserved it. Especially after tonight. But it didn’t change the fact that I wanted it to be just us. I hated seeing him with women wrapped around his arms or with their hands all over his body.
A knock on the adjoining door between our rooms pulled me out of the depth of darkness that I was quickly headed for. I hurried to open the door, and Hollis stood there grinning and holding the remote control up by his face.
“In the mood for some porn?” he asked.
“Are you inviting me into your room?” I teased, pretending to be really excited.
“Dude, get in here,” Hollis said and reached across into the doorway and took hold of my bicep.
We settled in on the couch to watch the first adult channel he could find. Both of us were hard within seconds and had our hands around our cocks. Soon, our mouths were on one another’s, kissing, nipping, and pushing each other’s tongue out of the way.
I was in heaven.
And then suddenly, I wasn’t.
“Patrick,” he mumbled between our kisses.
His hands gripped my shoulders and slowly pushed our mouths apart. My heart pounded so hard that I was sure he could hear it. I feared what he’d say, but I tried to prepare for the words that I knew would pack the hardest punch. And then I finally heard them.
“I need more tonight,” he whispered.
With his words, I tumbled right off my cloud with him and plummeted toward the familiar ground of heartache. With each fleeting moment, another reminder sunk in about how I would never be enough for him… or anyone.
I nodded and looked down. I stared at the slight purple mark on his knuckle while he tried to explain. “I’m really wound up from tonight. Winning this title and all… And I’m just fired up and need to fuck.”
“Okay. I understand,” I managed to say.
I plastered a fake smile on my face. I didn’t want him to feel bad. He was Hollis “The Dragon” Ward, and he deserved whatever he wanted.
“Two girls, Patrick. I’ll have Fletch send a couple up from the after party. Then we can each have one,” he offered. “Or four girls. Two for each of us.”
“It’s okay, Hollis.”
I stood and tucked my dick back in my pants.
“No, it’s not. I don’t want you to be alone.” Hollis stood and looked me straight in the eyes. I wanted to scream and yell.
Then fucking be with me!
Then be with me!
Then be with me…Tell him! Say it to him! Stop spending your fucking life living in fear! Everything you want is right in front of you!
