I didn’t need to be told again, my dick ached to be touched. I spit on my right hand and wrapped it around my hard cock and began to pump. While I moved my hand up and down my shaft at a quick pace, I rolled my nipple between my fingers as I balanced my phone on myshoulder.
“Pinch your nipple, Ryan, and come when you’reready.”
He told me I could come whenever. This time, I didn’t have to go slow and I immediately pinched my nipple hard. It sent a sharp sensation straight to my groin and set off a chainreaction.
“Fuck!” I hissed and came as I continued to pinch myself. I half moaned and laughed, trying to figure out why my body loved this so much. Russell’s calm, deep laugh brought mearound.
“There you go, Ryan. That sounded like just the kind of release you neededtonight.”
“Yeah,” I breathed into the phone and tried to collect myself. I glanced down at my cum and started to feel guilty about having done this over the phone.Again.
“Ryan.”
“Hmm,” I mumbled. Suddenly I didn’t feel like talking anymore. What was I doing? Jacking off on the phone while another guy talked to me was weird. Wasn’tit?
“Ryan, relax. Don’t feel ashamed or guilty over feeling good.” He paused and I remained quiet and still, though I now had developed an urge to get up and clean myself off. “Don’t punish yourself. Go clean up and I’llwait.”
“Okay.”
I quickly set the phone down and raced to the bathroom to clean myself up. I chastised myself as I cleaned. When I was clean and free of cum on my body, I put on some different shorts and got back intobed.
“Okay, I’m back. I’msorry.”
“What are you apologizing for,Ryan?”
“For having to leave andclean.”
“Don’t apologize for having aneed.”
I don’t know what came over me in that moment, but I felt like I needed to explain. I didn’t want him to stop mentoring me because every time I come, I have to leave and goclean.
“It’s just, I don’t like the way it feels on my body. I know it’s stupid. But, they’d leave it on me. They wouldn’t let me clean up after…after they put it there. They literally would keep me from the bathroom. Like, if they caught me jerking off they’d use the hairdryer and dry it on my skin. The heat was concentrated in one area and would burn me. But even when they didn’t catch me, I had toilet paper near me and would get it off of me as fast as I could. I just don’t like the way it feels on my skin. They said I was dirty like an animal, so I’d have to keep it on me, or in me. I could never seem to get itout.”
I shook in my bed. Why the fuck had I just blurted all of that shit out?Fuck.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to throw all of that outthere.”
Why was hequiet?
“Ryan,” he calmly said my name but then stopped. I heard him take a deep breath and then exhale. “Ryan, you weren’t the animal. Now, I know and understand that cleaning up right away is a need of yours right now. But in time, that need is going tofade.”
“How?” I snapped. “I’m sorry. I meant, how is it going to fade away? It’s been here forever withme.”
“Trust me,Ryan.”
For now, that was good enough of an answer for me. I just had to trusthim.
“My phone is right beside my bed on the nightstand and it’s available to you around the clock. I want you to try to get some sleep so you’ll be rested for your drive tomorrow. Please text me in the morning before you leave,okay?”
“Okay. I will textyou.”
I tossed and turned during the night, but it was due to having to see my mom and brother tomorrow. I finally got out of bed around 4:00 a.m. and moped around while I slowly got dressed and ready to go. I would have much rather spent my Saturday talking to Russell about the party last night. I quickly packed an overnight bag and sent Russell a text when I got in mySUV.
Ryan: Morning. I’m leaving the house now and should be in L.A. by 9:00a.m.
I plugged my phone in to charge and backed out of the garage when a text cameover.
Russell: What did you have for breakfast,Ryan?
