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“What did you do that you must forgive yourself?”

He’s looking at Sarah now, she's still curled up under his wing, like a pigeon in distress.

“Terrible things, but I learned to forgive myself and now I can have these luxuries,” he says, caressing Sarah's ass. “Believe me, we all deserve a forgiveness.”

I don't understand the meaning of that word, is it linked to a feeling?

I must forgive myself for making the wrong choices.

I must forgive myself for giving up so quickly.

I must forgive myself for not helping Amira every time her father locked himself with her in her room.

I must forgive myself for letting a tyrant have power over me.

I think about that list for a long time, but the back of my mind asks the same question over and over.

How could I forgive me myself for such atrocities?