“I didn’t tell him about you, and I’m wondering if I should.”
Talking about the dreaded L word was a big no. Arana would get all mushy, and I couldn’t do mushy.
“I thought we all agreed not to,” she said.
“Yeah, because of the shit going on with him, but we talked, and… we worked things out.”
“How sweet.”
“Annoy me and I will tell that shithead mob boss where you are so he can throttle you himself.”
“Fine, fine, but what makes you think it’s okay to talk to Roys now?”
“I don’t know. He might be in a better headspace to handle it.”
“If you think so. Did he apologize for hurting you?”
“Yep. A lot.” And told me more about himself than I imagined most people knew. Certainly none of us knew about Dinah and Malwin, or what happened to him on Earth. Thinking about all he had to do to survive made me sick. I wanted to throttle someone, specifically anyone who hurt him. I would do it too. I knew I would, that I’d commit an unspeakable act without him having to ask.
I was so doomed.
“And you forgave him?” she inquired softly.
“As I said, he’s good in bed.”
The bed jerked from her loud laughter. “Is that all that matters to you?”
“Yep.” Apparently not.
“You are ridiculous, but I’m happy for you. Both of you.”
I peeked at her and she smiled before kissing my cheek.
“Go to sleep. Try not to have any wet dreams about lover boy.” Arana giggled as she rolled over me to get off the bunk. I got one goodsmack against her thigh before she climbed into her bed and fell asleep in seconds.
How I envied her. Sleep avoided me. I tossed and turned, worrying about my heart that kept skipping and my mind that betrayed me. I thought of Roys, wanting to talk to him, message him, see him, kiss him, to have him in my arms in any way he’d let me, and that spoke volumes. Countless times I picked up my commlink thinking about messaging him as if we hadn’t seen each other already. Then a message came up.
Roys:I’d sleep better if you were here.
My teeth pressed hard into my bottom lip, stifling a painful smile.
Lucky:If I were there, we wouldn’t be sleeping.
Roys:Even better.
I silenced a laugh and rolled onto my side so the dim light of the commlink wouldn’t wake Arana.
Lucky:We should be sleeping though.
Roys:I know. I’m not that tired.
Lucky:Too busy thinking about me?
Roys:You do take up more space in my head than should be allowed.
Lucky:You don’t need to flatter me to get laid. I will happily suck you off whenever you like.
Roys:Can we have a sweet moment without you getting horny?
