“I can’t live without her. I don’t know how. I don’t want to learn how, either. She’s my heart,” I whisper.
“We’ll fix this, man. Somehow, we’ll fix this,” Jesse encourages.
Maybe for them… but it’s different for me. It’s meant to be different for me. She’s my wife and I didn’t show her the respect she deserves. It wasn’t just a “deal”. I promised her… we all did.
“I think keeping Ben away from her right now would be a good idea,” Kennedy tells us. He gives us all pointed looks and we all nod. Ben’s not in the best place right now. He’s still drinking heavily, smoking weed. Hell, we all drink and smoke a little weed here and there, but Ben’s doing it like he’s on a mission.
“He’ll level off,” Jesse assures us.
I give him a look. He knows what I’m thinking. Ben hasn’t leveled off so far, what’s going to get him to do so now? He’s a ticking time bomb, going off on anyone who he thinks so much as looks at him wrong. He’s wound tight and it’s pretty fucking frightening watching Ben drink himself stupid every night.
“What do we do now?” I ask.
Silence is my answer. This is going to get so much worse before he shapes up.
