I have one tiny sliver of doubt and she must see it.
"What is it?"
"Am I doing the right thing? By marrying him, I mean."
"You have doubts?" she asks, surprised.
"Not about us. But will I be holding him back? He's going to be touring a lot, which means we're going to be apart a lot and that means there'll be a lot of other girls out there throwing themselves at him. Isn't it a right of passage for a rock star to screw his share of groupies?" I ask, blinking back tears.
Mrs. M's brows are furrowed. "I do not think Xander wants that for himself. Did you not discuss this?"
I look down where my fingers are rubbing against the soft satin of my dress. "No. Not in depth."
"Maybe it is something you should talk to Xander about before you get married, no?"
I nod and look up. "Could you get him?"
"He cannot see you before the wedding. It is bad luck," she reminds me.
"I'll stay behind the room divider."
"There is nothing you need to worry about, but I'll get him for you."
When Mrs. M walks out, Shea walks in.
"What's going on?"
"I just have something I need to talk to Xan about before the ceremony."
"What? He can't see you before the ceremony! It's bad luck!" she exclaims, shoving me behind the room divider.
"I was planning on moving back here before he came in."
There's a knock at the door.
"Good thing I shoved you, huh?" she chides.
"Tera?" Xan questions through the door.
"Come in," I call out. Shea excuses herself. "You have to stay on that side of the divider."
He chuckles. "I know. Mrs. M told me. Bad luck and all that, right?"
I smirk and blow out a breath. "Yeah."
"What's going on, T? You change your mind?"
"No, no. I haven't changed my mind, but there's something I think we should have talked about before now, before we get married."
"Okay."
"I expect complete honesty," I tell him. I can't see his eyes to see if he's telling me the truth or not, so I will fall back on the trust I have in him.
"Of course, beautiful. What's wrong?"
"I… rock stars have certain lifestyles. They live on the road. They rock hard and theyplayhard. If we're married, will I cheat you out of parts of that lifestyle?"
"No," he answers, without hesitation.
