And that’s fine. Even if I wish it could be more.
Honestly, something casual is what makes the most sense for us both right now. He might be my roommate at the moment, where this can be an easy arrangement kept between us, but his house is so close to being ready. Truth be told, he could already be living there with how trivial the improvements that are still happening are.
Plus, he's still a professional hockey player. For the team I work for.
And on top of all that, he’s about to adopt a baby. He doesn’t need to worry about starting an actual relationship when he has all that going on.
And I’m really busy, too. I mean, I’m sure I could make the time, but… not the point! Casual is good. Hooking up with Hudson is a very logical, mature decision on my part.
If he wants someone to get off with, I’m more than willing to volunteer.
“Well?” I tease. “Have you? If we’re going to do this, you need to get really comfortable with me, really quickly. No holding back.”
His smile lights up his face as he chuckles. “I guess that’s true. Well, I got a few toys a couple of months ago. That was my first experience with anything going into my ass.”
My cheeks hurt from how big my smile is.
Oh my god. Hudson got sex toys to play with his ass after moving in with me? The thought of that is both the greatest thing ever, and also such a disappointment.Because hello?That’s so fucking hot to think about him doing in my guest room, but also, I could have been helping him do that this whole time.
“So what toys did you get?” I can’t help but ask.
“Umm. Well, it was a whole kit for beginners sort of thing. There are some plugs, a prostate massager…” he trails off, quietly mumbling what sounds like “a douche.”
My eyes go wide, and I playfully slap his chest. “Hudson Roy! Are you telling me that you used a douche, while in my condo, to experiment with prostate toys, and I had no idea?”
“Total honesty?” he asks skeptically, only making me even more curious.
I quickly nod. “Tell me!”
“I never locked the door. Sometimes I wouldn’t even bother to close it. I was kind of hoping you’d catch me doing something, and maybe you’d want to join in.” His cheeks are really red now. But as he shifts closer to me, his erection is obviously straining his pants, and it’s clear his embarrassment isn’t getting in the way of his arousal.
I gasp, practically shrieking “I can’t believe you were doing that on purpose!” as I playfully slap his pecs again. “I did notice you leave the door open a few times, but I had no idea what you were doing. Ugh, I wish that I had walked in on something, that sounds so hot. And did you like it?”
Because that’s really the million-dollar question, isn’t it?
Is there really a chance that my dream man and I are actually compatible?
“I love it,” he says, no hesitation as he shifts his hips more solidly into me. “Have I convinced you I’m ready to bottom?”
I give him a quick, assessing once over. He doesn’t seem nervous in any way. He’s confident in everything he’s said and asked for. But still, I have to ask one more thing. “So this will be your very first experience with a man ever?” He nods. “Are you sure you don’t want to ease into things? Maybe a blow job?”
He’s shaking his head before I even finish asking the question. “I want you to fuck me. I’ve been on the receiving end of a blow job plenty of times. If you want me to attempt to blow you before that happens, I’d be willing to try. But I just—I really need you inside me right now. I actually took a pretty thorough showerright before dinner, just in case you were willing to talk things through with me, hoping we might end up here.”
Holy fuck. Is manifesting real? Did I will this situation into fruition with the amount of times I fantasized about it?
I grab his hand and drag him after me as I lead us out of the kitchen.
“Is that a yes?” he asks, chuckling as he follows me down the hall. “You want to?”
“This is a hell-fucking-yes. Of course I want to.”
33
HUDSON
Ican’t believe that this is actually happening.
Adrian opens the door to his bedroom, and I step inside with all the lights on for the first time. Everything is drenched in a deep green color. Wainscoting, a word I didn’t even know before moving in here, makes it feel elegant, while the abundance of pillows on his giant bed and the built-in bookcases taking up an entire wall, displaying an array of both books and trinkets, manage to make it feel cozy and lived-in.
