Do I want to leave it to chance again? It’s not like I won’t end up fucking them all. I could roll a die to see who gets to fuck me first. I shake my head. This is ridiculous.
I shouldn’t be managing how to lose my virginity. It should just happen.
My phone dings.
Penny:
Hey girl. Got plans for today? Haven’t heard if there’s a party yet
Shit, what do I say? I know these girls are the hanger-on types who want to be close to the horsemen. If I wanted to make sure today doesn’t turn into another orgy, I could see about inviting more people to Caden’s pool.
Maybe Penny’s trying to find out where the party will be tonight and figures I’ll know or will find out.
I’ve never had so many complicated relationships to muddle through when it was just me and Kenz. Today I would have spent binge watching some new series and talking with Mom when she woke up.
I wouldn’t have had to worry about plans or parties later.
Me:
Don’t know about a party but will let you know if I find out anything
Penny:
Sweet! We’re going shopping if you want to come with
Me:
Thanks for the invite but I’m already spoken for today
Penny:
Okay talk to you later *heart emoji*
I shake my head as I walk out to my car. Having my car at Caden’s will be a new novelty. I can leave whenever I want. I check out the new tire we got yesterday and make sure no one has tampered with anything before sliding into the front seat.
Taking a deep breath, I hold the steering wheel. I’m willingly going to Caden’s for the day. No one is forcing me to go, but Nico is right. I should get to know these guys better. Maybe it will help me decide whether to go through with whatever this is or keep fighting it.
CHAPTER 21
Gathering the Defenses
Luke
While Harper is at her house, I figure it’s a good time to go home and get a change of clothes. Caden has extra swim trunks, and we all have a set there in case we get in the pool, but it’s probably a good time to check in on my house.
Dad’s BMW is the first thing I notice when I pull into the garage. My chest tightens, knowing he’s here. But I breathe out and release the tension. I’m in control. He has nothing to hang over my head right now.
I head in through the kitchen, but have to walk past his office to get to the stairs.
“Luke.” Dad’s voice is stern and commanding as I start past his door.
I turn and face him. Thankfully, I take mostly after my mother. My dad has light brown hair and hazel eyes. Though his physique is similar to mine and he keeps it toned, I’d hate to look in the mirror and see that bastard staring back at me every day.
“Yes?” I stand perfectly still in his doorway, waiting to see if he’ll call me in or just wants my attention.
“Come. Sit.” He gestures to the chair in front of his desk without standing.
I do what I’m told. I have one more year in this house before I’ll beaway from him at college. Fortunately he isn’t around much, so I don’t have to see him very often. These talks happen rarely.
