“I hope so.” His voice is soft. Fragile.
“There’s another ‘but’ in your voice.”
“I can’t rely on you, Jimmy. It wouldn’t be healthy for either of us if you were my sole source of friendship.”
“What about Angus?”
“He’s not around much.”
I raise an eyebrow. “Really?”
“He’s around a bit more at the moment, because of finals, but before that, he was barely home at all. He’d come back late at night.”
I can’t help but smirk as I imagine Angus sneaking around with Professor Dick. Sorry. Richard.
“What?” Flynn’s stare searches mine.
I wave my hand. “Nothing.”
Flynn pinches his lips together.
“It’s not up to me to say anything.”
At some point, Angus will go public with his relationship with the sexy professor, but not yet. It’s too soon. Until then, I’ll keep his secret.
“Breakfast was great, thank you,” Flynn says in a smooth change of subject.
“You’re welcome.”
“I should go.”
“Call me?”
“Sure. Enjoy freedom.”
I laugh. “I’ll try.”
An awkward silence hangs between us for a few seconds, until Flynn stands and sees himself out. I wait for the bang of the door and then release a heavy sigh. All I can do now is wait and hope that, this time, Flynn chooses me.
14
FLYNN
I manage to sneak onto the farm without anyone noticing I’m wearing yesterday’s clothes. I go to my room and change. My shoulder is stiff and a little sore, making me regret my life choices. I should have asked Jimmy for another massage, but I’d have ended up getting turned on again and wanting way more. Not a good call when I need to sort my head out.
Is Jimmy right that who I see and who I sleep with is none of Billy’s business? I guess he is right, but that doesn’t mean Billy won’t see me sleeping with Jimmy as a betrayal. What if I keep seeing Jimmy, and it becomes serious? There’s no way we could keep it from Billy forever, nor should we have to.
I put my walking boots on. Fresh air is the best thing for a clear head, and there are lots of walks in the area that I haven’t taken the time to explore.
Angus is in the yard, adding water to his jeep’s windscreen washer tank. He smiles and waves.
I wander over to him out of politeness. We barely know each other. Most of the time, we’re like ships passing in the night.
“Got plans for your day off?” he asks.
I did. I'd intended on spending the day with Jimmy, watching anime, but I messed that up by having sex with him. “Going for a walk.”
“Alone?”
