ELENA
The second thing?
Her text pulled me back from the mollusk-lined rabbit hole and snail recipes and the difference between cockles and periwinkles, or winkles as they were also known.
ME
What are your favorite sex toys?
I took a swallow of my coffee while I waited for her response. Maybe I should have made some suggestions—like a sexy multiple-choice question.
ELENA
I’m not sure. I haven’t really experimented with anything other that a couple vibrators.
I watched the dots showing she was typing flash and then disappear before starting again, and I worried that I’d pushed too far. Although the spanking had been her idea, so probably not.
ELENA
What did you have in mind?
I thought about some of the toys I’d come across doing the BDSM research. Anything that increased Elena’s pleasure worked for me. Some of the clamps that restricted then increased sensation could be interesting. Others, like theWartenberg pinwheel, looked wicked. They might say beginner BDSM, but they didn’t seem like it.
I wanted to know what interested Elena, and I didn’t want to prejudice her choices. It was important to me that she felt comfortable enough to explore and discover what she liked. Especially if she hadn’t tried them out herself before.
ME
Why don’t you do some research and pick 3 you want to try. Whatever interests you.
Doing the research for our last time together, had heightened the anticipation for me. Hopefully learning about sex toys would do the same for her. At a bare minimum, it would be more exciting than learning about periwinkle snails.
ELENA
Anything I want?
ME
Pretty much. Yes.
I leaned against the counter, anxious for her response. I didn’t think I needed to spell out my hard limits. I couldn’t imagine Elena bumping up against them.
ELENA
How would you feel about wearing a gimp suit?
Fuck. Maybe I was wrong about those limits. I paused for a moment, trying to figure out a way to say hell no but politely and without making her feel bad for her desires. Elena feeling bad or self-conscious or anything other than valued and desired went against my goal.
ELENA
I’m kidding. Unless you’re into that, in which case, I could maybe try to rally.
Thank fuck.
ME
No need to rally. I let my Latex Wearhouse subscription expire years ago.
ELENA
