“I wish you the best, baby. If you need me, I’m here. If you don’t need me, I’m still here. I ain’t going nowhere. You’ll be agreat step mama, though. Too bad, you’ll probably never know what it feels like to be a mother with that fuck nigga.”
He placed a sweet kiss on the tip of my nose and left me sitting at the table feeling like shit all over again. I wanted to get up and run after his ass. I wanted to slap him for his comment and hug him at the same time. My husband had never told me he wasn’t going anywhere.
“Come, let me get you home,” Casi said as she grabbed our stuff.
When I got home alone, I unblocked Jah enough to send a text.
Me: Please stop the flowers from coming to the house. My husband will be moving back in soon.
Jah: Don’t text my muthafuckin’ phone about that nigga, man. The flowers were paid for up to a year. He can get the fuck over it or tell him come see me about it.
Me: They can easily be cancelled.
Jah: Man, you want to argue, and I want to taste that pussy one last time before you cut me off.
Me: Jah
Jah: I’ll see you in an hour at your studio. Wearing something sexy for me
SIXTEEN
JAHMIR
Song: Methrone- Last Time
Tatiyonna was beingfunny by making me wait. I had all fucking night to wait. My soul without her was lost and hearing her verbally tell me that she was going back to her husband tore my heart out of my chest. Still to this day, I hated how I handled the abortion situation. I felt like that was our chance. That was our blessing, and we were going to spend the rest of our lives together. I still imagined myself spoiling her and our baby. She would’ve never had to lift a damn finger.
Tatiyonna pulled up next to me, twenty minutes later than I asked. I don’t know what she had did to her hair, but it was no longer short. I’m assuming she went and got a wig put on. She wore a long black trench coat with a pair of red heels. That shit made me sit up in my seat. She looked at me and walked by, making sure to flip her hair. I didn’t get out immediately. I wanted to give her time to get her music and shit set up. One last dance from her was all I needed.
When I got out of my car, I could smell her perfume. I pulled the door open and locked it behind me. She had already turnedthe light down and the music was playing. Unlike our first encounter, she wasn’t in the bathroom getting undressed. She had a chair in the middle of the floor waiting for me. I took a seat in the chair, and she wasted no time sitting her ass on my lap and grinding to music. Every time I tried to touch her, she slapped my hands away. For two songs, I let her seduce the hell out of me without touching her.
I took that thin ass red outfit she had on and ripped it off. Giving her neck a light squeeze, I brought her in for a kiss. I hadn't been with this woman in almost two months and she was still able to get my dick growing. My secretary didn’t even have it like that anymore. And trust, I tried. The way Tatiyonna made me feel was dangerous. I was willing to kill anyone and bury their ass under concrete.
“Sit up,” I told her, between us kissing.
She lifted up so I could get my pants down, and as soon as she felt me at her opening, she stopped me.
“Jah, we can’t do this shit again.”
“Look, sit your ass down, please. I’m not about to go there with you. I want you to sit down and talk to me with my dick in you. I know I would have your full attention like this. I’ll make love to you at my place.”
“Jah,” she whimpered as I eased her down.
“Nah, open your eyes so we can talk.”
“What?” I caught her off guard.
“I want to apologize for how I acted about the abortion. I’m man enough to say that I should’ve considered what you were going through. You know how I feel about family and the shit hurt. I’m not going to sit here and lie to you. You took a piece of me away from you without considering me. Granted, I was avoiding you, but my house is always open to you. I’m learning this whole love thing and sometimes I hate it had to be you. You’ve belonged to someone else since I met you. I meant everyword I said earlier, though, Tatiyonna. I’ll always be here for you.”
“I’m sorry too. I’ve been trying to get pregnant for so long, and then when it happened, I was shocked. So much was going through my head. What was I going to tell him…”
“Don’t mention him when you’re with me. I don’t really care how he would’ve felt. Did he give a damn how you felt when he was on the other side of town nutting in another woman?”
“Well, no.”
“Aight then. You made your decision based off him and not me.”
“Now that you put it that way. I was wrong too and I’m sorry. I don’t want you to think that I don’t love you, because I do. I just need security and stability. I’m not sure if I can get that from you being we’ve only known each other for such a short amount of time.”
