He opens his door, his grip on it so tight, the skin across his knuckles has turned white.
“Granted,” River shrugs, “I did expect it to go on a little longer, you were just so easy, figured I could string you along and then deliver you like a little broken doll at their feet but alas, here we are. Best go running back to your brother, Marly, you’re no longer welcome here.”
“River!” I whip my head around to Sadie who is staring at River with her eyes wide, horror and rage twisting her features, “What are you doing!?”
He shrugs nonchalantly, “You didn’t actually think I cared about her, did you?”
“Stop it, River,” Sadie demands.
But River has no remorse, showing me a side to him I’ve never seen or even thought possible from him. He used me, for what? Why is he doing this to me?
I gave him everything! I wanted him to have it, I’ve fallen in love with him. No, this can’t be right, this isn’t how it’s supposed to happen. Jake steps close to Sadie and touches her arm, did he know too?
He can’t bring his eyes to me which tells me he did know.
“Don’t worry too much, Marly,” Liam walks to his door, “I’m sure he hasn’t ruined you permanently.”
I want to vomit.
“I don’t believe you,” I say to River, my eyes burning.
“Your family is the reason I have no family,” He snaps at me, “Maybe use that brain of yours and figure it out yourself. And Marly?” His eyes do a slow perusal of me, “Maybe the next time you go ahead and spread your legs for a man, maybe be a little less desperate. You made it far too easy for me, it was disappointing to say the least.”
Hurt squeezes my heart, constricting the airflow and making it hard to breathe. I can still feel him inside of me, my panties are still wet, my body barely recovered from what we just did and he’s looking at me like I disgust him.
I thought he was starting to feel the same way. I thought we…
His door slams shut behind him and the roar of the engine cuts off my thoughts.
No. No this isn’t happening. This is just some sick joke.
My palms slap against his window, “Don’t leave me!” I cry, not even caring how desperate I sound, how much it hurts. I can’t do this.
I love him.
I love him.
He doesn’t love me.
He doesn’t even want me.
It was all pretend.
I used you, Marly.
It was disappointing to say the least.
He starts to pull away, despite my hands on the window, inching forward slowly but I don’t stop following, moving quicker as he speeds up until the toe of my shoe catches on something and I fall, knees hitting the dirt hard and instantly cutting into my skin. I don’t feel the pain.
River’s brake lights illuminate for a second before they go out and he drives away from me, leaving me in the dirt.
I feel my brother staring down at me, but I don’t look at him, I just stare after that bright green car as it takes the trail toward the lookout and disappears into the darkness.
“Marly,” It’s Sadie at my side, her arms coming around me, “Fuck, Marly, I’m so sorry.”
“I don’t understand,” I whisper.
“It’s okay,” She soothes, helping me to my feet. There’s a warm liquid running down my shins, it tickles as it rolls, and I know I’m bleeding but I don’t feel the pain.
