Bald-faced lie.But who would actually want a virgin?Who would want someone who can barely fit a dildo, who's never had a cock inside her?I mean, besides someone whose only mission is to deflower one.I can pretend.Right?I can imitate the books until I'm skilled enough.Fake it till you make it.
Again, I initial and move on to the next.Normal NDA and such, things I don't really care about.What's the worst that can happen?Someone tells my dad, and he blows up at me?Hopefully by that point, I'll have more than enough money to not give a shit what he says.
Unfortunately, that small thought worms its way into my brain until each breath is a little more difficult to take.I can't control who I see.I'm at the mercy of the clinic.What if one of the officers he works with sees me?What if I have to service someone he knows?
Alphas are more than welcome to avail themselves of this sort of service.It helps keep them safer on the streets.For omegas, however, it's sex work.Pure and simple.They won't understand.They won't be able to fathom why someone like me would want to be somewhere like here on my back earning money the old-fashioned way.
Besides, it's not like they'd believe me over my father anyway.To them, he's a paragon.He's the perfect husband, father, and Alpha.Who wouldn't want to be in the same house as him?
Maybe before Mom died.He was fun then.He was able to be kind, sweet, joke, and play.The man there now is a stranger.There's no other way to put it.
Setting the papers down, I twiddle my thumbs until a beta in a lab coat shuffles in.Her mouse-brown hair is up in a tight bun with matching glasses sitting on her small face—the very poster child of modern medicine.
"Do you have any questions before we begin?Any changes to your form?"
"No changes.But I do have a question.What if I know the person?"
She squints down over the lenses."What do you mean?"
"Like the Alpha who's going to… you know…"
"Rut into you?"
Heat fans my face as I do my best to hold her studious gaze.I'm supposed to be experienced.I can't give myself away yet.Not until I'm no longer a virgin.
"Yes.Sorry.I wasn't sure of the clinical term, and I didn't know if fuck would be appropriate."
She finally smiles as her face eases."You're more than welcome to say fuck.But as to your question, we match on a few factors.One, does your list of kinks and fetishes line up with theirs.Since you're pretty much open to everything, you'll match with nearly anyone who comes through.Two, we match through preference.Once an Alpha has come to the clinic, he's welcome to request the same omega for each visit.We don't discourage this.In fact, it's very welcome.It's far easier to let go and fully be in the rut when you trust your partner."
"Can an omega request an Alpha?"
She pauses and looks off to the side."It's rare.Usually omegas are here to fill a job.Be a willing hole, if you will.Since their capacity is to serve, they typically don't reserve Alphas.Besides, they wouldn't make much money if they only constrained themselves to one person.That, and it's far easier for omegas to catch feelings.We don't want that to happen if at all possible."
"I understand.But what if it's someone they're truly not compatible with?Or it's someone who frightens them?Just because our likes match up on paper doesn't mean things can't go wrong."
"You're asking if you'll be safe.Am I right?"The air grows still and heavy as she gives me a soft, sympathetic smile.
"Sorry.I've only ever slept with guys I chose.Basically, if I like you, I'll fuck you.This is a first for me."
"And I can understand your trepidation.Please be aware that all rooms are equipped with security measures.Since most of our participants are on the kinkier side, our alarms only go off based on scent.If it picks up on true fear, along with a few other proprietary factors that are never to be disclosed, someone will come in and assess."
"So if I say no?"
"Again, there is such a kink as consensual nonconsent, as you marked yes on your form.So I can only assume you're aware of it and enjoy it.We cannot come in for a simple no.Don't worry.We have had a one-hundred percent success rate dealing with undesirable actions.The perpetrator is blacklisted and turned over to the police.Since all Alphas go through full biological screening, there's no way for them to slip through the cracks."
"I understand."
She tilts her head and slides her glasses up her nose."But that's not your real concern.Is it?"Glancing down at her papers, she skims them then gives me a soft smile."First time at any of the clinics, so this is all new for you.I get it.It can be scary giving up so much control.But the same NDA you sign is the same one they sign.If someone finds out about your encounters, they're instantly blacklisted upon proof they revealed you.If your worry is someone in town will recognize you and spread it around, I wouldn't worry.The Alphas need this service enough to not be so stupid as to get removed from access.Any more questions?"
Will it hurt?
Honestly, it's the only thing I can think of now, but there's no way I can ask that and not reveal the lies I've put down.I can't risk losing access because I'm scared.I need to buck up, to take it like an omega.I can do this.
"No.I think that's everything."
"Perfect.Our physician is ready for you.Once your examination is complete, you'll be shown to your room for the evening.The Alpha you're paired with only requested a session and not a full heat, so you'll only be given enough pheromones to make you a bit more relaxed and able to engage."
She opens a side door and motions me inside.In the middle, a large gurney stretches out with padding and straps.Fear and arousal mix into a heady sensation as it slithers down my spine.The doctor in the back doesn't look up.He simply flits through a stack of papers.
