“It’ll do until I find my way, but I won’t be blackmailed. IlikeJudge and I’m not going to give up on him the way Chris gave up on me.” The confidence I had in that declaration made me feel ten feet tall. “What I have with Judge is new, but he makes me happy. I’m tired of living in fear of what comes next. The only time in my life that I truly lived was when I first met him and took him to a bathroom in a club and let him fuck me.”
Her eyes widened.
“It was wild and stupid, and it was the best thing I’ve ever done. It’s time I started doing that more often. Not the fucking in a bathroom, but the living thing. Take the bull by the horns—you know what I mean.” My face heated even more, but I didn’t let that scare me. I’d made up my mind.
She smiled gently and sighed. “I can’t stop you, but between us? I’m glad for you. I’m sorry it turned out this way. You know what the president of the college is like about ethics and the public image....”
“I know.” I leaned over to kiss her on the cheek. She’d always been a good boss. “Thank you.”
I let go of her hand and stepped back, and with all the confidence I had remaining I turned on my heel and left her. I headed to my office, expecting regret to start surfacing, but it never came. I wasn’t going to feel bad for what I’d done. For once I’d followed my heart. I just hoped it didn’t come back to bite me on the ass. The only person allowed to do that was Judge.
12
JUDGE
Smiling down at my phone,I stuffed it back into my pocket and swung around from heading along the sidewalk toward the library to help Jury out—he would probably manage to flirt by himself without any brotherly support—to go to Flynn’s office. I hitched my backpack higher on my shoulder. He’d said he needed a hand, and I couldn’t help it, I was grinning from ear to ear. Hopefully the thing he needed “a hand” with was his dick. Yeah, that probably wasn’t it, but if we had enough time before he had to go teach, maybe I could order him onto his knees and do whatever I wanted with his fuckable mouth. I was warm all over from thinking about him by the time I made it to his office and knocked on the closed door.
“Charming, is that you?” he called from the other side, and I was stunned for a second, then chuckled. As far as public names to call your Dom went, that was probably one of the tamer ones I’d heard, but it fit him. He loved to get filthy with me, but he was mostly sweet.
“Yeah, Rookie.”
The door swung open and he smiled at me, but he didn’t seem as happy as he had when I’d left him to go to class earlier. We weren’t trying to hide anymore, so I reached up and ran my hand over his silvery hair. I loved the color on him because it looked refined. He closed his eyes and leaned into my touch, and I brushed my lips over his. He moaned, and I nibbled on his top lip, tugging it out a bit as I straightened. Letting the tasty piece of flesh go, I chuckled, but then my heart twisted as I glanced over his shoulder and took in the complete and utter shitwreck that was his office. Boxes were scattered around and the shelves that had been lined with books were half empty. Desk drawers were lined up beside the wall as if maybe he’d taken them out to see what was in them and decide whether or not he wanted the items.
“Fuck, what happened?” I whispered.
Flynn didn’t answer me but tugged me farther inside the office, and when I was through the door, he closed it and reached around me to twist the lock into place again. He let out a long breath, and I was shocked when he flashed me a bright smile and sank to his knees. I dropped my backpack in surprise. I was so stunned I couldn’t think for a moment. There was clearly something not good going on, but I was stuck on how fucking perfect he was in his suit on the floor in front of me.
“Okay, Rookie. You asked me to come here.”
“Yes, Sir. Thank you, Sir.” He swallowed hard and my heart beat faster.
“What is this?” I asked, scanning my attention over the mess again before I gazed into his deep brown eyes, searching for answers. It was difficult to focus, though, because his lips parted and he wavered forward, almost as if he wanted to crawl to me and get my cock in his mouth. Heat blazed to life in my gut.
He dropped his gaze. “You wanted me like this, right? You want me to be your sub?”
Tapping my fingers on my thighs, I nodded. “Yes. I want this. You asking me to come here so you can show me how good you are as a sub is the best thing ever.” I raised my eyebrows and waited for the rest of whatever was going on. I sure as hell didn’t want to discourage him from getting on his knees for me, but I was still worried. As his expression went tight, I bent and rested my hands on his shoulders.
“What’s going on?” I tried my best to keep my tone calm. He’d been certain he could just go in and tell his boss that he was dating me, and other than a few adjustments with the grading it wouldn’t matter.
The expression on his face darkened even more, and I took a step back as he shrugged his shoulders and let his suit coat slide off, holding my breath while excitement and dread battled inside me. He unbuttoned his shirt and gave me a good view of his hard body, then took it off. I couldn’t look away while he tugged up the tank top he’d had on as an undershirt before allowing it to fall on the pile of clothing at his side. Something clearly wasn’t right, and I felt the situation getting out of my control. My cock sat heavy in my boxers anyway because Flynn without his shirt on was one of the best sights in the world.
He shuffled forward on his knees, and I bit back a moan until it was more of a growl as he buried his face against my crotch.
I glanced back to double-check the door was locked. “Rookie,” I said firmly and cupped the back of his head. I ground against him, sending a wave of tingles rushing across my skin, and he nuzzled my trapped cock. Fuck, I was losing track of what I should be doing. “Rookie, stop.” He froze but didn’t move away. “What’s going on?”
Flynn leaned against me harder. “Sir, I’m yours. Please, I need you. You said you wanted me. You said you wanted this to be a good relationship. A real relationship.”
My cockhead wept precum thanks to the tantalizing closeness of his mouth and the tickle of his breath rushing through the cloth covering my groin. This was amazing. My head was fuzzy with need and confusion. Flynn’s ragged gasps filled the room and it sounded like I’d already been fucking him. I forced my feet back a step and grabbed his shoulders, hauling him to his feet. His cock jutted out against the front of his pants, so at least I wasn’t alone that way. I hadn’t thought I would be, but he wasn’t acting like himself, so I dragged him against my chest and kissed him.
It was difficult to keep things from getting out of hand because I was so turned on, but I tried to keep the touch sweet. I shouldn’t just fuck him—he was acting weird. I needed to know what was going on. He slid his hands down my back and cupped my ass, rocking against me.
Okay, he was going to kill me.
“Sir, please, am I yours? You were serious, right? You weren’t fucking around, were you?” His eyes were too wide when I stared into them.
“You need me to prove it? You don’t trust me?” I didn’t like my harsh tone, but I was a little hurt.
“I do trust you, I do... I just....” His chest heaved and he stared at my mouth.
