I heard his breath catch again.
A light knock interrupted us.
Then a voice.
“Mrs. Garcia?”
“Yes?”
“I’m Dr. Gerard.”
I finally moved my hand away from my eyes and opened them to make eye contact with the doctor. Just because my ass of a husband was in the room didn’t mean I couldn’t be respectful to the doctor.
“Hello doctor.”
He came and stood next to the hospital bed, hands crossed over in front of him. He looked serious, but had a gentle tone.
“How are you feeling?”
I shrugged. “Fine, I guess. Under the circumstances.”
I could just make out my husband’s posture out of the corner of my eye and he was standing rigid.
“You have some nasty cuts on your arms and hands, but nothing that won’t heal. You may end up with some scarring though.”
I just nodded.
“Also,” he paused, shuffled for a moment, then continued, “you had a miscarriage.”
My hand was still on my stomach, but I could feel myself grow cold all over. I just nodded again.
“We will plan to do the D&C later, but want you to get as much rest as you can. If there is anything else you need, just let me or the nurses know.”
I numbly nodded again. The doctor had a kind face, but it was doing little to relieve my grief. I knew I had done this to myself, but I also blamed my husband for this. I would never have acted out like I had if he hadn’t done what he did.
He nodded, gave me a small smile, and left the room. The room that now was engulfed in silence, with the exception of that damned annoying beeping sound.
My husband moved towards the bed, and I turned my head away, looking at the wall.
“Catalina, baby, why didn’t you tell me about the baby?”
In a flat tone I replied back. “Like it would have made a difference?”
Silence.No, I didn’t think so.
His voice was soft. “We can try again,mi alma.”
Without meaning to, I broke out into hysterical laughter. I almost couldn’t stop, until I was crying.
With my face still tilted away from him, because I couldn’t bear to look at him, right now, or maybe ever again, I retorted, “I would never have another baby for you,coglione.And don’t you dare ever give me a nickname like that, you lying prick.”
His voice was still quiet, but hardened. “I fucked up, Catalina. I know that now. I only meant to show you that you don’t have power over me. But I was fucking wrong. You have so much fucking power over me. And we will try for a baby again.”
“If you want a baby so badly, knock up your whore. I’m sure she would be honored to do it.”
“I will not allow Emily near you or me ever again. I didn’t think she would be so stupid as to hurt you like that.”
You gave her that power, Carlo, so don’t act so wronged.”
